70th, the end of 2010

2010....

where new chapters of my life begun and new characters found, i can barely recall what i had done in this year if you ask me in large but i'll surely remember them in chunks, overall, it is a good year. and even though 2010 will be was a good year i will still remember the beautiful memories i had captured and stored in my treasure box. my mind...

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write a short entry for this on purpose.

i'm not good at saying goodbyes :')

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so long 2010, u'll be remembered don't worry

hello~ 2011, please be nice to me :)

you'll never walk alone guys..

good luck guys..i always have faith in my team..

bury them!

and sayangku torres..please give me good goals okay?

ynwaxoxo :)

so what, if i shed blood tears?!

huhuhuhu :'(

so what, if he asked for only my phone number and not others..

so what, if he said i'm his best friend..

so what, if he treats me well..

so what, if he talks to me more than he talks to any of my girl friends..

so what, if he smiles the sweetest smile to me when we met..

so what, if i'm feeling the rushing flush of blood pumping to my face when we talk even a simple talk..

so what, if he cares for me..

so what, if he waves to me so wholeheartedly when we said goodbye..

so what, if he makes me feel comfortable talking about anything with him..

so what, if suddenly i know he likes that other girl..

so what, if he already told me about his feelings toward that girl..

so what, if i feel pain in my chest when he told me how much he likes that other girl..

so what, if he ever found out about my feelings..

so what, if i love him..

so what, if i miss him..

so what, if he might not even care..

so what, if i'm hurt bad enough i might cry my lungs out..

so what, if i sound so pathetic here..

so what, if i'm confuse with this relationship..

so what, if i'm the only one who are confuse with this relationship..

so what, if i want it to be more than just friends..

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so what? so what? so what?

= i really don't know and it doesn't matter :'(

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S.M. THE BALLAD - Miss You

their angelic voices...i'm so touched :')

Super Junior SHINee | Bonamana (미인아) Lucifer Remix / Mashup

oh super duper awesome!

aren't they look like dolls?

so beautiful...

my darling and my sweethearts ♥

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ok this post is especially made

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because i cant sleep

*laugh*

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this is me :)

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this is my darling

CHO KYUHYUN

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cant wait to see you next year!

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♥ kyuhyun oppa saranghaeo ♥

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and of course

all of you dear ♥

♥teukie oppa♥ heechul oppa♥ siwon oppa♥ yesung oppa♥ shindong oppa♥

♥sungmin oppa♥ donghae oppa♥ wookie oppa♥

♥hankyung oppa♥ kibum oppa♥ kangin oppa♥

cant wait! cant wait! ;)

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my fault yea my fault

haha! screw me! i kept on reminding myself that yesterday was elly's n today is nobody's. the whole day i tried to do something and anything NOT related to this topic. eventually, i did actually forget about today but because of this screw moment: i was happily browsing my facebook and then on the side bar, birthday: his name . nice one facebook! you did screw up my plan! hahaha! i cant forget the date. its like it already stuck in my memory FOREVER. please~ i need a break... oh and you know what i did when i realized that today is his birthday? this is the silliest part i think. i TEXT MESSAGE him! *shit!* ''happy birthday! may Allah bless you! have a blast one k'' with a big smiley. hahaha! :'(

maybe some of you will say, whats the big deal? its only a wish. yeah true. its only a wish,but whenever i accidently think about anything related to him, i feel the pain. a stabbing pain. so painful i can hardly breath. you didn't know so shut the hell up!

ok i'm totally not prepared for multimedia paper. scared. enough said.

''i'm just a little too not over you"

bye.

this doesn't need a day you know =)

date: 15th October

venue: anytime, anywhere

dear elly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

though you are not reading this, i just want you to know how lucky i am to have you as a friend, a sister, a pal, my BUDDY.i love you and always will do.

take good care of yourself and always be happy.

till then, hope to see you soon! =)

have a good day BUDDY!

my friend's =)

i stole this from my friend's favorite quotation @ facebook =)

they sound so good

and i desperately need some soul enrichment now..

i'm still in grieving mode yeah and

to be truth i didn't do my study for tomorrow yet..

i just can't :'( serious shit i'm trying hard but i can't

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i'll share here =)

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"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"

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"My deepest fear is not that i'm inadequate, but my deepest fear is i am powerful beyond measure, it is our light not our darkness that frightens us the most, we ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

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PLEASE ALLAH..GIVE ME STRENGTH :'(

girls and guys part2

the answer is:

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the girl is head over heels crazy in love with the guy,

while the guy is having a crush with another girl...

the girl is severely heart broken right now

while the guy does not know anything

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laugh! laugh! laugh!

dear ♥

salam...

sorry peeps, i'm in my 'emo' mood,

you know..girls~

ryte! =)

so i want to dedicate this old song to my dear secret crush..

haha!

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset

She's going off about something that you said

'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like

And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts

She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans

I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself

Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down

You say you're fine, I know you better than that

Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers

She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know?

Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry

And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams

Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door

All this time, how could you not know?

Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe

You belong with me

You belong with me

-Taylor Swift-

=) to my dear secret crush... i wish you all the best for the upcoming exam :) i'll pray for the both of us ok! eventhough we are thousands miles apart, my thoughts for you will always stay in my heart ♥

girls and guys...

hurm..

how should i start this, better do this quick or else~

ok the problem with girls is their melting point is very low when it comes to love..

they are too easy to melt when a guy do something

SWEET or FUNNY or CARED for her etc etc..

but

actually

the guy does that for almost every friends(girl) he has..

so

misunderstanding will occur here

while the girl is head over heels crazy in love with the guy,

the guy's feeling towards the girl remains...

ORDINARY FRIENDS

and while the girl is busy making big fuss(with their girlfriends) if someone else talk to that guy,

JEALOUS i should say,

the guy does not know..

unless......

that guy is also having a crush with the girl

but does not have the guts to confess,

dont worry, he surely will someday...

but,

the most pathetic scene here is when...

the girl is head over heels crazy in love with the guy,

while the guy is having a crush with another girl...

let the time and destiny decide it~

few things...

firstly,

2morrow (29th shaaban) we'll see if the 'anak bulan' shows itself..positive or not i just want to say good luck and all the best with our holy month of ramadhan this year..may all of us achieve our piece of mind in this holy month by increasing our ibadah by doing tarawih and all the amalan sunat..amin...

secondly,

BPL season 10/11 will be starting soon..next week will be the kickoff game with Liverpool (my beloved team) facing Arsenal.. i'm so scared, eventhough i do have my faith on them, but God knows how terrible they were in last season campaign. hhmm.. you know what, lets just face it, i believe they will perform this year. please Mr. Roy Hodgson, bring us back our Reds Lads.. we really miss the real aggressive them.. cut me open, i'll bled red...

thirdly,

i'm terribly in problem right now..i think, this is because.. before this i used to procrastinate my assignments, so now i have tones and hips and piles of unfinished work. hurm.. no other people to be blame accept for me, myself and i. now, as i type this entry, i'm still working on my dear assignments.. ok i better stop now.

till then, toodles! ainur ya..hwaiting!

it takes two to tango..

yeah...i'll remember that...

you might never know...

i really hope you know..

but not now..

maybe later..

when the time comes..

hhhmm..

but..

you might never know..

because you did't even try..

but its ok..

i'm ok with dat..

i'm used to it..

its ok..

seriously..

you take care ok..

난 당신처럼..

revenge of the furry creature!

I watched Furry Vengeance with Arifah, Farah, and Ika last Wednesday at Jusco Bukit Raja..

hilarious funney movie indeed :D hahahaha!!

good for relaxing your mind...

but thats not what i want to write here ;)

BEFORE the movie started, we went to Jusco (downstairs) and buy ice cream.. :)

and we manage to smuggle it to the movie theater!!

yeah~

i mean THAT BIG ICE CREAM CONTAINER!!!

hehehe..

so proud with ourself.. ngeeee~ :D

during the movie, we were so busy passing the ice cream until the guys behind us notice it

and started talking about us

"sempat lagi seludup masuk ice cream! besar pulak tu! huiyo~Baskin Robbin!"

(padahal Walls je :P)

hahaha! a very fun outing with the girls..hehe..

with Ika having a nice shopping spree (got all she wanted, shoes, baju and bag..WOWW!)

while Farah and me being a good(angelic) sister bought baju for our adik(s)[70% off] hehehe..good trick!

overall...it was indeed a fun and relaxing outing

not to forget eating at Johnny's like a monster (hyperbole..we are all wanita melayu terakhir)

hahahaha!!

thnks girls! I had fun that day!

till then.. toodles~

:)

assalamualaikum...

• ...
• hello...hello people :) remember me?
• nowadays i don't feel like blogging.. i don't know y.. mybe bz+lzy :D
• hurm, just finish my methods of teaching's paper last Monday(i love my Lesson Plan!) n yet hv to face critical appreciation this saturday.. still studying,,
• try to understand the whole plot, themes, characterizations, foreshadowing, symbolisms, etc. etc. etc..
• short stories : Everyday Use, Piece of String, Gimpel the Fool, and Old Man With Enormous Wing..
• wish me luck guys! thanks a whole bunch! :)
• ...

alangkah bagusnya kalau...

• assalamualaikum...

• sabtu lepas sy ke surau berdekatan dgn rumah bersama k.una. ini pertama kali kami ke surau selepas hampir 2 bulan berpindah ke taman tadisma ini. suraunya bersaiz sederhana besar, tetapi kemudahannya sgt hampir kpd sempurna. berhawa dingin, sgt harum, bilik air yg sgt bersih, karpet yg tebal, suasana yg sgt tenang untuk beibadat. kami berkenalan dgn beberapa org makcik dan kakak yg mnjadi pengunjung tetap surau itu. mereka sgt peramah. tapi sayang...tiada seorang pun remaja perempuan sebaya kami disitu..tiada seorang pun muslimat muda sesaf dengan kami. remaja lelaki memang ada tapi itupun kerana ada sebuah sekolah tahfiz lelaki berdekatan dgn surau. merekalah yg memenuhi surau selama ini. salah seorang daripada makcik disitu kelihatan sgt gembira kerana hari itu saf kami penuh. kami bersembahyang magrib dan isyak di situ. imam yg mengalunkan surah2 ketika kami bersembahyang itu sgt merdu suaranya, mendayu-dayu menggamit ketenangan di hati kecil ini. selepas solat, kami bersalaman dgn jemaah muslimat yg lain, kami berdakapan mesra mengeratkan sillaturrahim sekaligus mengeratkan ukhwah. kami berazam untuk menghadirkan diri ke surau lebih kerap selepas ini.

• selepas ke surau kami bercadang untuk makan malam di kfc extreme park. lgpun mmg kaksu sedang study bersama kawan-kawannya disitu. lokasinya tidak jauh dari rumah kami dan tidak smpai 30 langkah dari surau td. hanya dipisahkan oleh sebatang jalan. tetapi disana kemeriahannya seperti ada karnival sedang berlangsung. anak-anak muda memenuhi segenap ruang kawasan extreme park itu. di tempat skateboarding, futsal, rockclimbing, setiap sudut kelihatan remaja seusia kami sedang bersuka ria. ketawa gembira. ini belum masuk soal batas pergaulan dan aurat yg terdedah. timbul sedikit rasa tidak puas hati di hati ini. sebenarnya agak marah dan selebihnya sedih. alangkah bagus jikalau mereka ini mengambil inisiatif mengimarahkan surau seketika sebentar tadi. melakukan aktiviti sihat ini tidak salah, tapi perlulah seimbang bukan? entahlah...ini semua hanya apa yg terbuku di hati.

• sy bukanlah seorang yg sempurna, sgt byk kekurangan dlm diri sy ini. tetapi melihatkan kpd orang-orang sekeliling yg lebih teruk daripada sy, (maaf kpd siapa2 yg terasa..sy x bermaksud) sy jd takut. inilah realiti, kalau dalam generasi sy sudah teruk sebegini rupa, bagaimana dgn generasi akan dtg? siapa yg akan membimbing negara yg tercinta ini? layakkah mereka? sy terfikir...

• “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."

  -Maria Robinson-

syed n ayie..my sweetheart darling~

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• this post is specially dedicated to my 2 new love of my life syed n ayie..i love them so much..
• please take care of them Ya Allah..
• i'll love them as much as i could..insyaallah~
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• Kittens kittens everywhere
• Kittens chewing on my hair
• Kittens climbing up my jeans
• Kittens hanging from the screens
• There's a kitten on each shoulder
• Will they do this when they're older?
• Kittens fighting on the chairs
• Kittens tumbling down the stairs
• There's a kitten on my head
• There's a kitten in the bread!
• There's a kitten in my shoe
• I don't believe we just have two!
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• -kitten kitten by William Wordsworth-

this is me :)

my adorable babies sleeping

ayie : bouncy baby

syed : genuinely graceful

notes : they r actually female kittens :P

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