what?? its already June the 9th?!!

i'm chilling..hanging out..resting..relaxing..cooling down..*inhale exhale* haaaaa~ what a holiday..*insert Hawaiian Waikiki song here* i feel a sense of bliss flowing down my nerves system.calm..its nice to be able to chill without pressure of having assignments to be submitted and having to stay up all night to finish them up..yeah i know like everyone is facing the same situation so y'all might as well understand the situation right..so when the time to relax came,, i'm happier than happy! yeayy! :DD well its not like i dont do anything at home, i'm the official maid of honor at my house during holiday okay, but eventhough i have to do all these house chores..i feel happy because i'm home..home is where food will never be short, the house will never be too big, and i will never stop smiling :) its my home..i love my home..home sweet home *lol i'm totally being crappy here* and at home, i gotta be fighting with my annoying spoiled baby sister..this one is veryyy gooood...i got to bully her asking her to do this and that..she never complains but sometimes she makes faces but who cares..hahaha

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BUT wait up, oh my..time do fly so fast..is this true?! the second week of my so called holiday is getting near to it's end..oh my..i'm so scared..can i literally jump off the highest cliff at Bukit Indah pleaseeeee? *not that high hehe* I'M GETTING NEARER TO MY INTERNSHIP!!! oh this is panic attack..omygod omygod what am I suppose to do?? i'm pretty goddam sure i'm not prepared to face the children..i mean c'mon, i can barely control my anger and my skills of making faces to my own siblings...and and and what about the content of my teaching later?? what am i suppose to teach them? am i good enough? can i control the situation? what if

something bad happen in my class later *touch the wood* oh my...sudden headache..bye!

.eh copppp! *insert happy mood* i just want to tell you..i'm going to the live Liverpool vs. Malaysia game on the 16th July!! weee~ see..i'll sit at the blue colored zone yawwww! again.. a big thanks to my dearest ILYA ELLYNA NOR AZMAL.. I LOVE YOU, YOU KNOW THAT ;) I'M SO SO SO HAPPY!! yah..even though i'm quite nervous with the date because you see..eventhough the game will be held on the 16th but i have the pass to see them training live in front of my naked eyes on the 14th which is for god sake fall on thursday which is a schooling day..so how? *sigh* i'm happy but i'm nervous..what am i suppose to do to?? reckon anything? this my true obsession...the one even before i knew my 15 pretty boys..my passion n my life..oh i pray hard every day that the solution will come because i'm not sure what to ask specifically..i just want this problem to be solved..i really really really want to go to watch the players especially Capt Stevie G training on our soil..but i also cant skip school because this is INTERNSHIP, its like working in real, i cant simply skip work..i'll be dead..oh my..please help me Allah...

i can do this!

just few more freaking days before the time disappear, vanished as thin air..so i must work hard! play less! focus more! pray for me friends..i'm in desperate need,thank you in advance

p/s: this picture made my day..happy mother's day : )

especially to ibu dearest, you know i love you so mucho mucho!

lonely

he is so lonely...he wrote things like this on his twitter..

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"Sometimes, it's easier to think that there is no one around me. Whether it be a fan or a friend.. Maybe it's better to have pain in a place where you love rather than have hatred in a place where you are loved.. In the end, you are alone even if you live and you are still alone if you die. Since long time ago, I've been thinking that I have been deserted. Now, thinking that I have to make it as it goes is. " .

Source: Heechul Twitter

Translated by Minnie @ SUJUISM.BLOGSPOT.COM

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its funny you know, when we really love our favorite artists to the point that we think we can feel their pain but feel completely hopeless when it comes to how can we help them,i cant do much and thats sadden shit out of me, i love them so much..i never love artists as much as this. be strong heechul shii..be strong boys..be strong Super Junior..ELFs will always be there for you..watching you from far if you really want to be alone..saranghamnida :')