giving up

.

i don't know why but i think this picture is so sweet.

even my friends agreed with this statement.

they look so compatible together.

they are very cute right?

can be the next WGM couple.

hihihi >_<

just think about it

kyunur couple..

awwww~

.

.

.

.

.

.

my friend said i deserve better. she said i have to take care of my heart

i'm trying very hard right now.

seriously..

okay i don't want to sound desperado here

so i'd take a stand,

i'll quit

i'll give more chance to myself

i'll not restrict myself

i'll find somebody else worth it

the one that will accept me

...

(distraction1 : cf about Bieber boy)

oh justin bieber, baby you are so sweet..

i wish i'm younger so that it'll not be too embarrassing

fangirling head over heal for you hehe

=DD

.

.

so i made my decision,

i'll clear up my mind, build some barrier

for this 'so called' feeling..

so that we can be normal friends

but not strangers,

and live happily :)

since you already found someone..

i too will start looking hehe

dont worry, i'll be fine..

i'd made my mind, remember? :D

.

.

ayah give me a brilliant idea about writing.

this is his example of story:

a girl, say a teenage girl age maybe 12 or 13

(base on my truth story handling my sister..and myself of course)

.

np: Super Junior K.R.Y - Fly

(distraction2)

.

so the idea is, write about what this teenage feel, face, and etc..

in a fun n interesting way.

targeted readers: around that age also..

hihi

...

i love the idea, but the fact that i'm not a writer

bugged me.

i feel this very interesting..

okay i tell you what,

what if i give it a try?

:)

sounds good!

i dont know..............what do you think?

sleep talking

"my mind is so full right now that i don't even realize i was doing all these silly things..i mean, what did i think? how can i be that foolish? am i that stupid? oh please..."

.

>i should be hitting the sack now..sleeping, dozing over..but instead, i'm here..i couldn't shut my eyes close as i saw tons of awaiting problems as soon as i closed them..well not problems..things in life that need to be solve..oh i'm so miserable now..what am i suppose to do? is this worrying over unnecessary things like one of my lecturer always said? i don't think so...i think i'm definitely worrying over certainly necessary important things..things that make my life..they are what people live for..what people need in their life..their soul nourisher..its not love i'm talking about here..its many things all of you disregard because of love..

.

>and you! i don't give a damn about what you are thinking of her! i don't like you like i did before..you pathetic little loser! i wish you can read this, loser! now my hatred isn't for her anymore but more to that annoying fuzzy feelings towards you..you sore loser! clever me huh? i can control myself..you thought me fool! set a barrier, remember? thanks by the way

.

>"sometimes..just sometimes, i can be so sickly annoyed by the people i love the most..not necessarily a guy, it can be family or friends"

.

>please.....i'm so tired right now...