giving up

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i don't know why but i think this picture is so sweet.

even my friends agreed with this statement.

they look so compatible together.

they are very cute right?

can be the next WGM couple.

hihihi >_<

just think about it

kyunur couple..

awwww~

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my friend said i deserve better. she said i have to take care of my heart

i'm trying very hard right now.

seriously..

okay i don't want to sound desperado here

so i'd take a stand,

i'll quit

i'll give more chance to myself

i'll not restrict myself

i'll find somebody else worth it

the one that will accept me

...

(distraction1 : cf about Bieber boy)

oh justin bieber, baby you are so sweet..

i wish i'm younger so that it'll not be too embarrassing

fangirling head over heal for you hehe

=DD

.

.

so i made my decision,

i'll clear up my mind, build some barrier

for this 'so called' feeling..

so that we can be normal friends

but not strangers,

and live happily :)

since you already found someone..

i too will start looking hehe

dont worry, i'll be fine..

i'd made my mind, remember? :D

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ayah give me a brilliant idea about writing.

this is his example of story:

a girl, say a teenage girl age maybe 12 or 13

(base on my truth story handling my sister..and myself of course)

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np: Super Junior K.R.Y - Fly

(distraction2)

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so the idea is, write about what this teenage feel, face, and etc..

in a fun n interesting way.

targeted readers: around that age also..

hihi

...

i love the idea, but the fact that i'm not a writer

bugged me.

i feel this very interesting..

okay i tell you what,

what if i give it a try?

:)

sounds good!

i dont know..............what do you think?

70th, the end of 2010

2010....

where new chapters of my life begun and new characters found, i can barely recall what i had done in this year if you ask me in large but i'll surely remember them in chunks, overall, it is a good year. and even though 2010 will be was a good year i will still remember the beautiful memories i had captured and stored in my treasure box. my mind...

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write a short entry for this on purpose.

i'm not good at saying goodbyes :')

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so long 2010, u'll be remembered don't worry

hello~ 2011, please be nice to me :)

revenge of the furry creature!

I watched Furry Vengeance with Arifah, Farah, and Ika last Wednesday at Jusco Bukit Raja..

hilarious funney movie indeed :D hahahaha!!

good for relaxing your mind...

but thats not what i want to write here ;)

BEFORE the movie started, we went to Jusco (downstairs) and buy ice cream.. :)

and we manage to smuggle it to the movie theater!!

yeah~

i mean THAT BIG ICE CREAM CONTAINER!!!

hehehe..

so proud with ourself.. ngeeee~ :D

during the movie, we were so busy passing the ice cream until the guys behind us notice it

and started talking about us

"sempat lagi seludup masuk ice cream! besar pulak tu! huiyo~Baskin Robbin!"

(padahal Walls je :P)

hahaha! a very fun outing with the girls..hehe..

with Ika having a nice shopping spree (got all she wanted, shoes, baju and bag..WOWW!)

while Farah and me being a good(angelic) sister bought baju for our adik(s)[70% off] hehehe..good trick!

overall...it was indeed a fun and relaxing outing

not to forget eating at Johnny's like a monster (hyperbole..we are all wanita melayu terakhir)

hahahaha!!

thnks girls! I had fun that day!

till then.. toodles~

:)

nick my love =)

his beautiful voice, his innocence-looked face, his charming appearence, and the cutest,, his curly hair that i admire the most,,

but some of these info below..i never knew before (including dat he is actually 1 year younger than me, i thought all the 3 of them r older than me,uh, damn!) so i would like to share these

info with all of u!

Nicholas Jerry "Nick" Jonas (born September 16, 1992) is an American singer-songwriter and actor best known as one of the Jonas Brothers, a pop-rock band he formed with his brothers Joe and Kevin. The Jonas Brothers originally started as an attempted solo singing career for Nick, but when his brothers Kevin and Joe sang backup for him, the record producer liked their sound and signed all three of them. He currently stars in the Disney channel original series JONAS as Nick Lucas, alongside his brothers.

nick was born in Dallas, Texas, the son of Denise, a former sign language teacher and singer, and Paul Kevin Jonas Sr., a songwriter, musician, and former ordained minister at a Pentecostal Assemblies of God church. He was raised in Wyckoff, New Jersey and homeschooled by his mother.

He was diagnosed with Type I diabetes at the age of 13 and wears an OmniPod insulin pump to help him manage his diabetes. He has developed the Change for the Children Foundation. Partnering with five different charities, their goal is to raise money and awareness for diabetes. He also developed a public service announcement with the Washington Nationals to support diabetes care at Children's National Medical Center in Washington, D.C.

nick's carrier started when he was discovered at the age of 6 in a barber shop while his mother was getting her hair cut and was referred to as a professional show business manager. At the age of 7, he began performing on Broadway. He had acted in several plays, including A Christmas Carol (in 2000 as Tiny Tim and Scrooge at eight), Annie Get Your Gun (in 2001 as Little Jake), Beauty and the Beast (in 2002 as Chip), and Les Misérables (in 2003 as Gavroche). After Les Misérables closed, he performed in The Sound of Music (as Kurt) at the Paper Mill Playhouse.

Jonas Brothers After meeting with Jonas and hearing the song, "Please Be Mine", written and performed by the brothers, Daylight/Columbia Records had decided to sign the three as a group act. After being signed to Columbia, the brothers considered naming their group "Sons of Jonas" before settling on the name "Jonas Brothers."

It's About Time, the brothers first album was released on August 8, 2006. According to the band's manager, it was only a "limited release" of a little over 50,000 copies. Because Sony was not interested in further promoting the band, the Jonas Brothers then considered switching labels. The band was ultimately dropped by Columbia Records in early 2007.

After shortly being without a label, the Jonas Brothers signed with Hollywood Records in February 2007. Around the same time, brothers began appearing in commercials for Baby Bottle Pops, singing the jingle. Their self-titled second album, Jonas Brothers, was released on August 7, 2007. It reached number five on the Billboard Hot 200 chart in its first week. Its sold since sold over three million copies worldwide.

The Jonas Brothers' third studio album, A Little Bit Longer, was released in the United States on August 12, 2008. It sold over 2 million copies worldwide. The Jonas Brothers were listed number 9 on the richest pop acts of 2008 with Coldplay and AC/DC making over 62 million

ELLY!! PENTING NI!!

ni map nak gi msu..

senang je,,elly kn dah biase ngn shah alam kn..

kalau x clear tgok kat sini

http://www.msu.edu.my/v6/university_location.php

hehe...

good luck!

(^^)

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DREAM...

• last nyte,, i watched SEPI,, it was a very nice movie,, i cried horribly ...
• yeah,, its a 'cerite lme' ,, kaksu rcomend me to watch it
• cerite-cerite sedih yg patut ditengok!
• -> sepi, cinta, pensil, n lots more shes been promoting to me..
• how kabir bakhtiar plan the story is awesome and how the pelakons act were spectacular! the best actor is of course afdlin shauki :)
• my favourite story between dat 3 story is iman's story..although baizura kahar's acting is not really good,, but i found her story is really near to me..
• overall,, good movie it was,, imagine if i watched it at cinema~
• hhmm..totally a blew!! :D

• i dreamt of him this morning...see, i slept late last night, so i'm very sleepy this morning..so when they all(ayah, ibu, alya) had gone to work n school,, i fell asleep again...
• it was only from 8-9 a.m sleep..a 1 hour sleep..but when i woke up..i feel like i was sleeping for ages! like it was part of my life...the missing part of it..
• in my dream me n him(only elly n christina knows him) met in this one wedding of our friend..he never notice me before..never! i think..(it was a secret crush..i like him from the first day i saw him..) but at dat wedding,, we keep on meeting eyes n it feels different..and real..like he was also feeling the same feeling i felt..and it really feel so real..
• so when the wedding was over, i was on my way to my car (already dreaming of getting my license..)when suddenly he called me..
• ''ainur!! ainur kn? erm..kte satu klas kn? u look pretty today.." i just nervously nod,,shyly smile~~ :)
• the fact that he was standing there, talking to me was a real blow to me..what more,, he said i'm pretty?? is it true?? although it was just a dream..i can feel my cheeks hot ,blushing...as far as i know..in dat dream..i was just like me in this real world..still big,not slim, still wearing a tudung, my real self..
• he ask me to join him for a minum-minum anywhere near,, suddenly i'm so scared..mybe it was just a betting his friends and him are plying around..but his face is genuinely honest, i cant stop myself from saying 'ok' ..(i thought it was a great desicion since i will never get that chance in the real world)
• during dat minum-minum moment,,he told me this shocking statement..i remembered it clearly..masih terngiang-ngiang lg tau!
• "i tau u mybe terkejut kn i tbe2 dtg kat u td, tbe2 ajak gi minum, hhmm..i pon xtau..actually..i dah lame suke kat u..u comell sgt..n baik..but i dont know how to bgtau dis thing to u..u know n u see..i'm not a very good guy..u seems so nice..i tkut u x trime i..tp ble tgok lynn dgn alias bahagie td..i x bole tahan diri i..i tkut u pegi kat org lain..will u marry me ainur..please..dont say no.."
• my tears run down my cheeks..i cant believe it..it almost feel like real..almost..n suddenly the scene changed..
• with 'cinta antara kita' song being the background music of dat scene..we were having a sweet moment together..walking at the park, eating together, laughing..and then when he was staring softly into my eyes..
• i was awake~
• still smiling of dat sweet moment..i tried really hard to continue my sleep n my dream..but i cant..

i dont know what is the meaning of this dream

it might be just a 'mainan tidur'

or

mybe bcos i watched SEPI..(he really looks like sein ruffedge in dat movie)

but

i'm happy..eventhough it is just a dream..

at least i had feel those happy feeling being together with him..

even it is just for a while..

its enough,, more than enough~

in real world..i'm still his biggest secret admire..

*menyukai seseorang yang bukan muhrim yg berlainan jantina tanpa si dia mengetahuinye adalah satu jihad*

(somebody told me that)

• p/s : tomorrow,, test jpj..wish me luck friends~

BEST2!! psar mlm pntai dlam...

Errrmm...nak ckp ape lg..mmg SGT BEST!!! heaven of food~huhu..ctenye cmni...selase mlm rabu ari tu seperti biase kteorg~kaksu, kak una, is, wan, sha, ecah, n me(syaza x ikut sbb nak siapkn assignment) gi lepak kat ali mkn (semalam rafi)..tgh dok tunggu order seperti biase kaksu memulekn agenda biasenye iaitu berceloteh untuk mlm tersebut..."ishhkk..korg x boring ka ari2 ngadap muke mamak2 ni? ye la..kte ni kalau mkn, tak ali rafi..tak rafi ali..kaksu boring la gak''..lalu kak una mengutarakn sebuah idea yg bole dikatekn menarik..''a'ah la kaksu..btui gak tu..bosan! eh kaksu..jom pegi pasar mlam pantai dalam nak,,lama kte x pegi sana kn?'' tbe2 mate kaksu bersinar2 "brilliant idea usna!! apsal la aku x tepikir dari dlu kn..ha! bole tunjuk budak2 ni..korg msti x pnah pegi kn? kte pegi besok nak..since besok ari rabu..ok?"..mmg kteorg x pnah pegi pon..x pnah dgar pon name tu..kteorg pon ok je laa..sebab cm syok je,lgpon mmg agak bosan layan food mamak everyday..pastu kaksu n kak una cite..kat sane mcm bazar ramadan,,mcm2 gile ade..kalau dtg x lapa pon jd lapa lpas tgok mcm2 makanan kat situ..drpd utare, selatan, timur, sume laa jenis makanan..u name it..sume ade..wahh! lg teruje daku mendengar perkare itu dilontarkn..ni seronok ni! hehehe... SO...dipendekkan crite ari rabu pon menjelme dan berlalu dgn agak pntas(cet,,psar mlm punye psal)..hari rabu mmg sume budak fbmp ade program mentor-mentee,, n mmg slalunye budak tesl sgt jarang dilepaskn cpt..time table ckp 4-6 ,,,pkul 6 lah abesnye..kdg2 lebih..smpai2 bwah hostel tu dyeorg sume dah tunggu kat bwah..aduyai..''sorry2...kak una, nak gi tuka bju n letak beg jap ek..'' sepantas kilat daku berlari naek dan buat ape yg patut dan turun semule...since kteorg bertujuh,, teksi amek 2 la kn..3-4 org per teksi,, tahan teksi je dah 1 hal..disebabkn jln nak gi ktm sgt jem di wktu balik keje seperti itu, x byk teksi yg ingin merisikokn diri mereke menempuh dugaan tersebut,, abes minyak je kate dyeorg..aduh,, cmne ni..namun akhirnye ade gak la teksi yg sudi menghantar kteorg apabila melihat muke ksian kteorg..hehe..tactic bejaye! dlam ktm daku n is mndpt tmpat dudok mnekale mereke yg laen terpakse berdiri..sesampainye di stesen pantai dlam, kteorg pon kuar..igtkn kat luar tu je psar mlmnye,, rupe2nye x..kne naek teksi lg pulak bru smpai ke destinasi tersebut...tunggu teksi x la lme sgt..siap kaksu igt2 lupe jlan laa..smpai pkck teksi tu pon cm hangin je tp cool cos penumpang msti diutamekn(written on the side window of the texi) smpai kat tmpat tu pkck tu ckp,,''laaa..awat hang x ckap psar mlam je td..kn sng..flat itu la ini la..haduih" kaksu hanye mampu tersengih ''sorry pkck..'' kteorg yg laen hanye mampu bergelak! hahahaha!! Sekeluarnye daku dari teksi tersebut, terpampanglah deretan gerai yg sgt panjang di dpan mateku,, "waaaaaa~~~pnjgnye!!!" itulaa reaksi pertameku ketike melihat psar mlam tersebut..sgt pnjg!! dahla bercabang2..byk gle gerai! dgn bnggenye kaksu berkate "kn kaksu dah kate" hehehe...smentare mnunggu teksi 1 lagi smpai yg membawe kak una, is, dan wan..kteorg (ecah n sha sbenanye) telah dingorat oleh anggota2 RELA yg sepatutnye bertugas mnjage keamanan kawasn tersebut..''iishhkkk! rimas ah!'' kate ecah..nak buat cmne cahh, dah anda tu la lawa..haha..naseb baik la seminit due lpas tu teksi dyeorg smpai..kteorg pon memulakn misi memburu pada hari tersebut..aduyai..rambang mate dibuatnye..mcm2 ade,,ckp je,, goreng2, sup2, nasi2, buah2, rojak2, mee2, air2 jgn ckap ah kn..dari air2 cm kordial tu, ice blended, ABC, cendol, kelapa, haa! sume laa..setelah seround tgok2..akhirnye daku membeli rangke ayam n nasi ayam berempah(sebungkus rm3 je!! gile murah! ayam dah la besar!) n sepnjang jlan2 tu secawan air mate kucing n secawan air tembikai telah daku slurpp2..dan juge sebatang sushi malaysia yg menarik perhatian untuk di try..hhmm..agak sedap:) ha! lupe nak cte..kaksu n kak una teringin nak mkn laksa penang, n dyeorg mmg dah tau tmpat mne yg jual sedap.."makcik gothic tu usna!'' kate kaksu.. spontan mereke tergelak berdue..kteorg yg laen ni cm blank2 je..pastu dyorg ckp.."x pham ek..xpe2,,nnti tgok sendiri..hehehe" kate kaksu n kak una..sesampainye di tmpat yg dituju,, ternmpaklah kami sesusuk tubuh manusia yg nmpak rugged dan agak gothic, wktu dye menoleh ke arah kteorg tu terserlah kegothican make up beliau..dgn eyeliner yg tebal, lipstick yg agak gelap..wahh! mmg agak berumur untuk dressing cmtu..rsenye 40 lebih nak dkat 50 cmtu..kteorg sume terpegun..kaksu n kak una hanye mampu tersenyum melihat gelagat kteorg..tp mkck tu baek,,peramah sgt..kaksu smpat membodek,, "laksa mkck ni sedap tau..sedap sgt,,sebab tu kaksu jd pelanggan tetap dye" mkcik tu tesipu2 seketike,, ecah yg cm x than je tgok laksa tu trut meng-order satu 4 dye,, itulah,penangan mkck gothic~si ecah n sha nak bli apam balik yg nipis tu..alaa..yg rangup tu..ape nme dye? hhmmm..x igt la ape nme dye..korng tau2 sendiri la ek..hehe,,disebabkn agak byk org yg jual bnde tu,, n bnde tu nmpak sme je kat sume tmpat,dyorg decided nak bli kat org yg paling hensem yg jual..hahaha! ape ke jadahnye ntah,xde kne-mengene hnsem dgn sdap kowt..tp tu mmg dyorang, nak buat cmne..haha,,nak dijadikn cte ade 2 tmpat yg penjual dye agak hnsem..mmg btul, bole than la hensem mereke,hehe..dahlaa si ecah n sha ni dlam dilemma..haha!lwak tgok dyorg! masalah cm besa gle je! cm pk msalah negare!pdahahal nak plih mne satu je..last2,, kat due2 tmpat dyorang bli..hihi,kn senang..(tp duit sedie je laa)...hhhmmm~ Dalam pjlanan blik,,bau semerbak harum food2 yg kteorg bli melingkari ruang legar dlam ktm n teksi..hehe..lapa je org sekeliling kteorg, comform tension! dahla pnat blik keje ke ape, bau plak sedap2 from kteorg..hehehe,,sesampainye kteorg di campus cpt2 mandi n solat..pastu kteorg pon start la kenduri pada ari itu..wahh!! mmg mkn smpai kenyang ah mlm tu..n sambil mkn2 tu kaksu n kak una biasela..bercerite kisah2 hidup dyeorg..comment2 org..buat lwak jenake thap pecah perut..aduyai~smpai situ dlu kot psal psar mlm pntai dlam..tu je la kot buat mse skrang...till the next post..bye~ P/S : sesetengah part of dis story telah ditokok-tmbh dan diubah suai SIKIT untuk memberi kesan yg lebih dramatis..haha! :D

[[...ADULTHOOD...]]

the title might be a lil bit..i dont know..for me..spooky..seeing the word being type itself make me feel very nervous..but it is wut is going on with my life now..i sumhow slowly entered a phase of life called..adulthood(gggrrr..goosebumps!!)..of course not totally change cos this phase took a whole lot of tyme.. 8th of june i was sent to management n science university(msu) shah alam for a course in dip TESL..i'm not sure wut i feel at dat tyme..not totally sad but also not totally happy..i'd rather called it nervous..i guess..nervous of a totally new lyfe,with new surrounding,new circle of friends,new people,new activities, but most of all maybe a new me..is it nervous or scared? i'm not sure...more like combination of both.. ok..let get to the story..true story of me for the past 10 days at msu..my hostel is located inside the campus which is not totally a campus..it is a 3 blocks shoplot with a compound transformed to become msu n college ptptl's temporary campus bcos our new campus still in consrtuction..my room have 2 double dacker bunk which made my room had a total of 4 people in it..quiet a big num for a small room like dat..but it doesnt matter nway..i like crowds..the more the marrier..hahahaha..besides,all my roommate still in their semester holidays(which is now clear that they are all seniors..i've met 2 of them n they are so nice..)the 1st four days was the orntation week..typically..groups being made,lots of teamwork,abg2 n kakak2 faci with their ridiculous yet fun tasks,talks,talks n more talks,hillarious group performances ..i sumhow like it..n then comes the part when we have to settle everything all by ourselve..the ptptn loan,the subject registration,the way to calculate our tuition fees,the meeting with our mentor n counsellor,the way to count credit hours,the way to look at the tricky timetable n lots more..thats when all the adulthood really started..i never done anything like all that stuffs alone before..n it felt really awfull when i had to decide sumthing without my parents to guide me..it really make me grow up faster than ever in that little period of time n tried to solve the problems all by myself..i felt like crying at some points of the times but then i realised this is exactly wuts going to happen to me after this..or mybe worse..so i got to adapt fast,be independent,know how to control myself,or i'll be lost..besides its not like i'm truely all alone..i got my mentor n counsellor to advice n teach me on everything..it is just that i'm the one who will do the things..not like before dis..in school..almost everything ayah n ibu will do..OK..done with dat..so..at msu..i know a whole lot of new friends..firstly my groupmate in orntation week..they are~taufiq,hazim,haziq,aiman,hafifi,sildesh,intan,aina,ain,ambiga,shira,jess,n chua..we are the ROCKSTARS ryte..hehe...enough with isabella either in search version or in the orchestra version..after dis we will all be going in different faculty but the memories remain..and my new roommates~sha,syaza, n lia..good to know u all n i hope share some great moments with all of u:) to other new friends~ecah,is,nazim, thanks for ur accompany..i do appreciated it..to my mentor~mdm nur izlin, please guide me maam..to my counsellor~kak malzana,thanks for all the time u spent to make me not so nervous bout my life here..i will always need u here..AND a big round of applause to abg2 n kakak2 faci for the brilliant orntation week~en muaz,abg zul,abg faris,abg bob,abg shaputra,abg hairie,kak syira,kak anne,kak ika n all...thanks..thanks..thanks.. n a special thanks to elly n diyana for keeping me insane while i stuggled to go through the most boring weekend of my lyfe filled a a little by calling n smsing..love u both!..n a whole bunch of thanks to stephen mayer for creating 'new moon'..the savior of my desperate life last weekend..i read that book without skipping not even a word i tell u..haha..n of course last but not least to ibu n ayah for not failing to call me 5 times a day for that 10 days..gosh its a number! i do appreciated it n will always remember it..oh yeah~to my hubby love:))fernando torres..thanks for being there with me every single second i'm in the room..although u r just hansomely stand still in the poster..i knew u were there with me(gile!) haha..erm..ok than..thats all i guess..thanks for reading:)

i believe we can fly...

i want to dedicate this song to all my friends espcially my beloved gladys o4o8...our path maybe different after dis but i'm sure every single of us will become someone in the future..may Allah bless all of us..aminn...

"I Believe I Can Fly"

I used to think that I could not go on

That life was nothing but an awful song

But now I know the meaning of true love

By leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it

Than I can do it

If I just believe it

There's nothing to it

I believe I can fly

I belive I can touch the sky

I think about it every night and day

Spread my wings and fly away

I believe I can soar

I see me runnin' through that open door

I believe I can fly [3x]

Ohh yeah

See I was on the verge of breaking down

Sometimes the silence can seem so loud

There are miracles in life I must achieve

But first it's got to start inside of me ohh

If I can see it

Than I can do it

If I just believe it

There's nothing to it

I believe I can fly

I belive I can touch the sky

I think about it every night and day

Spread my wings and fly away

I believe I can soarI see me runnin' through that open door

I believe I can fly [3x]

Cause I believe in me yeah oh

If I can see it

Than I can do it

If I just believe it

There's nothing to it yeaa

I believe I can fly (I believe I can fly)

I believe I can touch the sky (touch the sky)

I think about it every night and day(Spread my wings)

Spread my wings and fly away

I believe that I can soar(I see me runnin')

I see me runnin' through that open door(through, through)

I believe i can fly yeah

I believe I can fly (I can fly)

God said I can do it (I can fly)

If I just spread my wings (I can fly)

Spread my wings

Spread my wings

And I can fly Ohh fly

I can fly (I can fly)

LIVERPOOL NEW FAN!!

thanx to elly~ i'm now liverpool supporter~but i'm still new...there's so much for me to know n find out about dis team..haha..never cross in my mind to like n watch football..i dont hate it,i just dont care to know bout dis sport..for me football is totally not me..but it really quiet interesting if u watch the match..the way the players play..haha..i watched my real 1st match alone last monday..liverpool vs aston villa..it is very aston-ishing..gle ah..x penah2 tgok bola ...tbe2 tgok bola sorg2...tp wktu 2nd half..ttdo...huhu..i miss 2 goals..thnk god dah tgok kat final score after dat..elly cam mrh ah gak tp dye kate xpe2...1st timer..haha...so..she gave me dis brilliant idea..dye kate wktu mle2 dye tgok bola dlu pon sebab dye nak tgok gerrard...so she told me to choose any player yg agak cute...(xcept gerrard..haha) so, i decided to choose fernando torres...walaweyh~bole thn ape comeinye...n dats was the story...the beginning of a new story...''ainur fan of liverpool''