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it's my long awaited event

2011-07-19T10:33:00.003+08:00

16th July 2011 has ended :')

and nobody can force me on what to do and what to wear, its my dream from long time ago, my day, my joy, my happiness, you will not understand this, all 'you' do is bash people without even think about it, 'you' are a good sample of immature people out there, actually i've known your attitude and i'm not bothered about it much before but for you to make such a statement about my love towards Liverpool and questioning my loyalty towards Malaysia, that is just too much, because you see, if you are not clear about this, since you are a baby in this subject, Liverpool is an EPL CLUB which i happen to love and when i love something i love it very dearly,that is a fact, and Malaysia is my COUNTRY where i was born and live happily until now, that is also a fact, why questioning a pure blooded Malaysian like me who love peace so much for this country i will do anything for Malaysia. would you do that? i dont think so

of course i wore red bcs thats the reason i bought the ticket, this is the first time they set their feet on this pitch of Bukit Jalil, i want to be seen in red, you cant argue my trust on Malaysian team just bcs i didnt wear blue/yellow, bcs Malaysia is in my blood, it streamed in my body and pumped in each of my heart beats. you should have known this. and for every goals for both of the team, i celebrated them with a scream on top of my lungs, each of the nine goals that night, without a single hint of biased, and when Liverpool scored, i started to scream ''go Malaysia!" louder just to make them feel boosted eventhough they cant hear me, am i that bad for a Malaysian? i'll answer it, NO! bcs you just didnt know!

ahh..i'm pissed of for 'nothing' like you, you just wont understand this, just forget it my dear self, how can you not be mesmerized by this beautiful scene, an endless sea of red in my home soil stadium, it really felt like stadium of Anfiled that evening, and for me this is an honor bcs i know, it is still long way to go to make it to the real Anfield so this is very special to me. you really cant questioned my love and loyalty towards these two team, its a two different world and i will shed two different tears if these two is vanished from my life.

p/s: my internship will start just around the corner but nothing about it from the school to the place to stay is confirmed, i'm dissapointed with my university.

on the 9th cloud

2011-06-27T17:07:00.003+08:00

its a sunny breezy Monday evening, i'm quite mad my class for today is cancelled and postponed to tomorrow, huh~ okay its the end of June now, July is approaching real soon..i have a mix feeling about July, its the month where i can see my heroes on the pitch of my home soil but it is also the month i will be going to see the children..the first batch of children i will be teaching *goosebumps* omygod whenever this thought strikes me, i'll always get that nervous bone-chilling sensation.. oh my, me being at home without anything related to english accept for spazzing and blogging and watching movies surely is a no helper. i'm scared i might forget the ways to teach, ooo~ what do i do....okay form today onward, i promise myself i will do a 1 hour grammar exercise and read back my teaching books..MUST!

okay bubbye for now, my dad is fasting today..i want to make fresh refreshing fruit juice for him :) lovely daughter i am right? teeheehee~ toodles lovelies! ^^

the sweetest dream (mine!)

2011-06-13T11:33:00.007+08:00

call me crazy call me a fool, my dream of them felt so real i classified it as a tale before i was put asleep..the sleeping part was just a condition so that i wont be too sad to see them slipping away from my arms..so when i woke up at 11.40 a.m.(i slept at 4 so this is bearable) this morning, i sigh..."oh..it was only a dream..." but it was the sweetest dream of them i've ever had. i was so determined to write this here i even scribbled some of the highlights of the dream bcz i was scared that i might forget what happened. shaking...

-the dream-

i was at the Idol Village you know the one in Invisible Youth, so i was walking at the field then slowly i saw bunch of people.THEY ARE CELEBRITIES!! then i was joining them like i was one of them, joking and laughing together..i was i bit confused but i thought in the dream "do they know me? ah nver mind..as long as i can be w them w/o feeling awkward" i think i was one of the G7 members..new member cause they always said "yah..please be considerate to the maknae" "give it up to the maknae" and all..and then, you know in every episodes there might have boys as guests right? in this dream, b2ast's dongwoon, FT island's jaejin(i screamed like crazy once i saw him in front of me), SJ's donghae and some other boys i couldnt remember..then this weird thing happened, donghae came to me and hugged me like we knew each other and that we havent met for quite some time, i hugged him back cz i knew this will nver happened again, and then one of the girl, mybe seonhwa i'm not sure said "ah..its nice if i hv boys as members too" and i was like ha? ha? ha? but suddnly my little sister alya came(from nowhere) and whispered to donghae something fishy..and he like it, idk what was it..next i was on a truck like vehicle w kara's hara resting our heads before shooting some more scenes of invisible youth, it was so natural for me that i even feel the tiredness same as her (LOL at this) suddnly, a fangirl came from nowhere w camera in her hands saw us, she went "ohmygod..are you sj's seo young and kara's hara? can i have some pictures? *CLICK CLICK CLICK* and then she ran away giggling" but then in the dream, i recalled back what the fangirl has said..SUPER JUNIOR's SEO YOUNG????????? shiiiiiittttttttt! i was one of them! its getting clearer! the only girl in sj! the new member! my heart goes dup dap dup dap dap DAP DAP DAP!! its going to explode and i'm crying silently there, maybe hara noticed i was dumbstruck like that so she hugged me and said "its okay..its okay" suddenly someone w a hoodie came near to me,when he came near me, i saw his face, its long lose sj's KIBUM!! i jumped from the truck and flew to hug him so tight! and plant a peck on his cheek.. it was my 1st hug as a sj member yawww! i asked him in one long breath "where hv u been? do u missed us? r u having fun making dramas and films? hows ur little sister (same age as me)?? u know u can always share to me ur problems right? and his tears strolled down his cheeks greedily in big lumps, i cant stand seeing him like that so i cried even harder and then he said "sshhh...its okay..i'm alright...shhhhh dont cry..." and then i realized that this is only a dream so must make it fast to see all of the boys before i woke up..i asked kibum where are the other members, he pointed at the changing/preparation room nearby that have a big "SUPER JUNIOR" sign in front of the door..we walked together towards the room hand in hand, he was smiling brightly like he was about to deliver a real big surprise to the boys..when i first walked in, the previously noisy room turned to a pin drop silent situation..everybody was looking at me w an astonished reaction,oh i can still remember them,,then shindong came to me and said "we missed you so much baby" and i replied w tears strolling down my cheeks "i missed you too" and hugged him,then i went to hug leeteuk(the leader), he jz smiled, his smile was so beatiful i cried again and said "sorry to make you worried so much, the invisible youth production didnt let me go home these 2 weeks" i dont know from where i got that idea but maybe its true LOL like maybe i hv to finish up recording all the episodes of the season before i'm allowed to go home..right? then i saw hangeng and waved to him (oh we're awkward even in the dream, i smiled) and then i saw heechul from the back (he sit backing me up,err how to say) at the corner of the room, listening to songs form his ipod, isolating himself as usual not knowing i'm back..so i went towards him and hugged him from his back..at first he was like surprised then maybe jz maybe bcz of the familiar scent of me, he glanced to the side where my face was at, smiled, and bite my right cheek! "ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!! HEECHUL OPPA!!" i screamed..he laughed hard at the bite mark..oh heechul~i'm all teary again..then i went to hug sungmin w his cute pink checked shirt n thats when i saw him..my prince..(oh my god i'm literally teary right now) he jz came in the door w yesung and ryeowook at his sides..shocked but smiling that evilish cute smile while walking towards me,i was nervous,flustered, and every emotions in the world just run into my body kicking every organs in it real hard, i swear i was about to faint(lol in a dream) when he catched me and hugged me , "i missed you so much honey" he said half whispering and give me the sweetest softest most beatiful kiss on my lips. it was jz in-a-blink-of-an-eye moment bt i closed my eyes and hold his hands tight to cherish the moment cz i know this dream will stop any moment now. then yesung came from kyuhyun's back and gv him a knock on his head hard "stop it you fool! we missed her too!" we burst into a big laugh..hahahah!! then i saw kangin at the other side of the room smiling at me and suddenly "nur! bangunlah! dah nak pukul 12 jap lagi ibu balik!" my big brother yelled, i tried to continue the dream but i kept hearing the sounds of my brother's steps besides me..huh..so i decided to wake up,write some draft about what really happened, and do this post..this is not something to brag about, just want to keep the memory safely here and will never be lost..the things that i regretted from this dream are i failed to look for each of the members and tell them how much i missed and love them. i'm so sorry siwon n eunhyuk for not seeing both of u in the dream at all, sorry to ryeowook, yesung, and kangin i didnt make it to hug and say i love you..sorry to hangeng i was awkward to you even in the dream bt i want you to know i love you just as much as the others.. and sorry to my love cho kyuhyun, sorry you appeared in my dream right before it finished, i'm sorry boys...i'm glad you guys accepted me to be one of the member of Super Junior even it was only in a dream...

what?? its already June the 9th?!!

2011-06-09T00:09:00.004+08:00

i'm chilling..hanging out..resting..relaxing..cooling down..*inhale exhale* haaaaa~ what a holiday..*insert Hawaiian Waikiki song here* i feel a sense of bliss flowing down my nerves system.calm..its nice to be able to chill without pressure of having assignments to be submitted and having to stay up all night to finish them up..yeah i know like everyone is facing the same situation so y'all might as well understand the situation right..so when the time to relax came,, i'm happier than happy! yeayy! :DD well its not like i dont do anything at home, i'm the official maid of honor at my house during holiday okay, but eventhough i have to do all these house chores..i feel happy because i'm home..home is where food will never be short, the house will never be too big, and i will never stop smiling :) its my home..i love my home..home sweet home *lol i'm totally being crappy here* and at home, i gotta be fighting with my annoying spoiled baby sister..this one is veryyy gooood...i got to bully her asking her to do this and that..she never complains but sometimes she makes faces but who cares..hahaha

BUT wait up, oh my..time do fly so fast..is this true?! the second week of my so called holiday is getting near to it's end..oh my..i'm so scared..can i literally jump off the highest cliff at Bukit Indah pleaseeeee? *not that high hehe* I'M GETTING NEARER TO MY INTERNSHIP!!! oh this is panic attack..omygod omygod what am I suppose to do?? i'm pretty goddam sure i'm not prepared to face the children..i mean c'mon, i can barely control my anger and my skills of making faces to my own siblings...and and and what about the content of my teaching later?? what am i suppose to teach them? am i good enough? can i control the situation? what if

something bad happen in my class later *touch the wood* oh my...sudden headache..bye!

.eh copppp! *insert happy mood* i just want to tell you..i'm going to the live Liverpool vs. Malaysia game on the 16th July!! weee~ see..i'll sit at the blue colored zone yawwww! again.. a big thanks to my dearest ILYA ELLYNA NOR AZMAL.. I LOVE YOU, YOU KNOW THAT ;) I'M SO SO SO HAPPY!! yah..even though i'm quite nervous with the date because you see..eventhough the game will be held on the 16th but i have the pass to see them training live in front of my naked eyes on the 14th which is for god sake fall on thursday which is a schooling day..so how? *sigh* i'm happy but i'm nervous..what am i suppose to do to?? reckon anything? this my true obsession...the one even before i knew my 15 pretty boys..my passion n my life..oh i pray hard every day that the solution will come because i'm not sure what to ask specifically..i just want this problem to be solved..i really really really want to go to watch the players especially Capt Stevie G training on our soil..but i also cant skip school because this is INTERNSHIP, its like working in real, i cant simply skip work..i'll be dead..oh my..please help me Allah...

i can do this!

2011-05-09T23:03:00.003+08:00

just few more freaking days before the time disappear, vanished as thin air..so i must work hard! play less! focus more! pray for me friends..i'm in desperate need,thank you in advance

p/s: this picture made my day..happy mother's day : )

especially to ibu dearest, you know i love you so mucho mucho!

lonely

2011-05-04T02:54:00.003+08:00

he is so lonely...he wrote things like this on his twitter..

"Sometimes, it's easier to think that there is no one around me. Whether it be a fan or a friend.. Maybe it's better to have pain in a place where you love rather than have hatred in a place where you are loved.. In the end, you are alone even if you live and you are still alone if you die. Since long time ago, I've been thinking that I have been deserted. Now, thinking that I have to make it as it goes is. " .

Source: Heechul Twitter

Translated by Minnie @ SUJUISM.BLOGSPOT.COM

its funny you know, when we really love our favorite artists to the point that we think we can feel their pain but feel completely hopeless when it comes to how can we help them,i cant do much and thats sadden shit out of me, i love them so much..i never love artists as much as this. be strong heechul shii..be strong boys..be strong Super Junior..ELFs will always be there for you..watching you from far if you really want to be alone..saranghamnida :')

annoyed much!

2011-04-27T00:29:00.005+08:00

i find it a little bit disturbing+annoying when you always talk about the not-so-good side of people you don't like and tell the whole world about it..please..i see no difference between you and those people!

and oh yeah dearest readers...please pray for my exam? thanks! :)

giving up

2011-04-17T11:18:00.004+08:00

i don't know why but i think this picture is so sweet.

even my friends agreed with this statement.

they look so compatible together.

they are very cute right?

can be the next WGM couple.

hihihi >_<

just think about it

kyunur couple..

awwww~

my friend said i deserve better. she said i have to take care of my heart

i'm trying very hard right now.

seriously..

okay i don't want to sound desperado here

so i'd take a stand,

i'll quit

i'll give more chance to myself

i'll not restrict myself

i'll find somebody else worth it

the one that will accept me

...

(distraction1 : cf about Bieber boy)

oh justin bieber, baby you are so sweet..

i wish i'm younger so that it'll not be too embarrassing

fangirling head over heal for you hehe

=DD

so i made my decision,

i'll clear up my mind, build some barrier

for this 'so called' feeling..

so that we can be normal friends

but not strangers,

and live happily :)

since you already found someone..

i too will start looking hehe

dont worry, i'll be fine..

i'd made my mind, remember? :D

ayah give me a brilliant idea about writing.

this is his example of story:

a girl, say a teenage girl age maybe 12 or 13

(base on my truth story handling my sister..and myself of course)

np: Super Junior K.R.Y - Fly

(distraction2)

so the idea is, write about what this teenage feel, face, and etc..

in a fun n interesting way.

targeted readers: around that age also..

hihi

...

i love the idea, but the fact that i'm not a writer

bugged me.

i feel this very interesting..

okay i tell you what,

what if i give it a try?

sounds good!

i dont know..............what do you think?

mushroom garden

2011-04-14T19:31:00.005+08:00

hello readers..i know..its been a while..but i really2 am busy with my studies now, the last semester before going to practicum, hectic but i love the discipline. i'm having this idea to write this at this place called *title of the post* haha

the reason why i'm dying to write now is you know when you are really annoyed with a person, you tend to forget that you are a human. sounds mean..but hey, thats how i feel now..pretty much boiled up to head..i dont know for others, but for me, its quite pathetic for a girl to behave like that with a group of boys. that just not right. professionally and ethically...please lah..we were in a class, behave like one. i dont give a sh*t if you want to show your so called 'affections' towards the boys OUTSIDE the class but in the class? where everyone can see you? thats just how it eeeeeuuuuwwww me like h*ll! i know..i know..you are a bright student with result i never had but that doesnt mean u dont need the knowledge..OR if you really think you dont need the knowledge, can you please consider other people? people who really want to have that knowledge to at least dream to have result as yours..*sigh*

okay...so you n I both are in awkward period or what? i cant stand this you know..i really2 want everything to be as normal as it can be, if you can act like a normal person towards her..why cant i act normal towards you? the thing is here now..you are acting like an alien towards me, how am i suppose to cope with that? its been 3 weeks you know, since you last talked with me in a normal way..is it because of that 4496 seconds of talk time? if it is because of that than dont you ever think about that night anymore..i just want the old you, who are not awkward and shy or something shitty like that..i dont like it. it makes me feel far from you..please..act the normal you towards me..i miss you :'(

okay so i felt so much more relieved now than before..thanks blog..i owe you one..now i must continue my life..thanks guys..

running out of mood

2011-03-17T21:48:00.003+08:00

hello..

we meet again :)

haih..y laa ainur..y u no study??

seriously people..i dont hv not the slightest tiniest mood to study

not that i'm fully prepared

i just,

i cant focus on the notes anymore

my mind is like flying away..drifting..

to the other corner of the world.

i feel guilty to myself but i cant help it

oh...

i hope after this, after i take my bath, i will hv some mood

(i already take my bath ok)

okay...here it come again

those fuzzy feeling about being at the concert

>_<

awwwwwww!!!

cant wait!! cant wait!!

1 more freakin day~~

hahahaha!!

dont envy me people,

i'm born this month.

bye!

congrats Liverpool! i knew this will happen!

2011-03-08T14:42:00.003+08:00

again..for the gazillion of times,

congrats boys!

for a very heartwarming result and the hard effort on the pitch,

nice game lads!

a special congrats to our one and only

Dirk Kuyt

for the first hat-trick scored at Anfield,

those goals are well-deserved by you.

you are the HERO.

thanks for making stevie the capt smiles broadly that day

i'd missed those cheerful smiles so much! :)

and for you Luis Suarez,

thanks for giving full dedication towards the club.

thanks for the assist you did to help Kuyt.

we'll be looking forward for you

to score loads and loads of goals for us :)

be happy playing for the club okay?

and oh yeah~

Andy Carroll debuted,

please play well you both!

i had personally congratulates them on twitter.

i just want to update here so that i know,

on 6/3/2011

Liverpool had won against Manchester United..

our biggest enemy, and i'm really proud of my boys :)

YNWA~

to be or not to be...

2011-03-04T07:30:00.006+08:00

mood: none

have you ever heard of a book called 'the exchange'?

well, i'd finish reading the book recently,

its about a teenage boy who had lost his parents because of a car accident.

he is an addicted reader, you know what i mean?

he likes to read story books, no matter what story..it can be anything..

it can be a pirates fighting with a six-legged platypus,

a fairy princess who is on the road to find her true love(sounds cheesy right)

a battle between 2 kingdoms that results to be an epic war

wizards and witchcraft, full of chants and spells

seriously

it can be everything.

as long as it is a story, fictional one.

but he sucks in writing, people said the more you read, the more you ca

n write.

but he found out that he cant write, he'd try to write..but nothing came out from his mind to the paper. so he decided. he classify himself to be

a reader, not a writer.

the thing i like about the boy is, i think i have the same problem with him.

i like reading books, story books, biography, autobiography, history, literature,

you name it.

i'd once tried to write. a so-called love story

but i found out i dont have a proper ending for it.

so i left it unfinished half done.

i suppose i have to stick to be only a reader.

i feel excellent being one.

*now playing: Super Junior-Marry You

i know, you never see me as a girl, a girl you'd be attracted to

you be friend with me because

i'm a good listener,you can easily share things with me

but

do you know that i only be a good listener

to whom i love? and care?

you didn't know right..i guess u'll never know..

and whats that suppose to mean ainur?

are you saying here, you love him?

cut that crap sweetheart, you'll hurt yourself.

i'll listen to my mind..

but what about my heart?

i pity her, i always ignore her,

sometimes i feel guilty..but this is for her own good.

ah~

never mind..being friend is more than enough

as long as theres reasons to talk to him

cheesy much lah ainur..

hihihi

*now playing: Super Junior-Shining Star

oh its freaking 15 days to go!!!!!

my true loves are coming to Malaysia!

boys...embrace me, kiss me, surround me,fill me in with lots of your love

the 13 or at least 10 of you

and makes me happy that day, ok?

especially you, Cho Kyuhyun :)

this is it! :')

2011-02-20T02:22:00.005+08:00

i'm one step away from my dream.

ooo my God

i'm all teary just by thinking of it

ALHAMDULILLAH

thats all i should say,

many times of it,

even its not that appropriate, you know..

being too happy for things like this,

going to a concert~

but its my dream and its once in a life time

i'll take this as a life experience

that can make me see things in a broader, more matured way

i'll be celebrating my 20th years of life 10 days after the concert

and ends my teen years

so yeah

this is surely the biggest, most precious birthday present I've ever had

a friend i treasured from i-know-nothing until now, still.

nurilya ellyna,, ELLY :')

i just want you to know, its not the ticket that makes me feel happy today,

its the thought,

the thought that you want to include me in this beautiful life experience

i could't help but to be all teary after you awarded me

with this great big surprise.

i feel so honored buddy.

you have all the thanks in the world from me

thanks Allah..thank you so much, you gave me a chance

to feel this tiny, little bit, of all the beautiful things

that you've created in this world

i feel blessed

even prettier, to experience it first hand with my buddy

ALHAMDULILLAH~

the journey is yet to start,

i'll be doing countdowns for the time to come

bare with me readers

i'm a fangirl remember? ;)

now, i must be concentrating on my u-works

and

my upcoming exams

i'll be doing my very best to show to the boys that i'm working hard too,

just like them!

quoted by my buddy

"for now, there are TWO things in my life,

exams and this concert, only these two"

tomorrow

2011-02-18T18:06:00.004+08:00

hopefully everything will be alright,

i'll be praying hard,

keeping my finger cross for anything bad to happen.

tomorrow is the key to my dream and its all depending on my buddy elly.

i wish you good luck and all the best

may our dream comes true

cant wait cant wait!

oh warning peeps, i might be bragging about something

real soon..

clue?

SS3!

yayy! I found another Mr.Cho

2011-02-17T16:19:00.005+08:00

hihihi..hi there!

i promise this will be a short post.

i know i'm way too late to like this guy, but he is so cute i cant help it ;)

people, meet John Cho

(he's super cute right? hehe)

a Korean-American, who is an actor

(hey, Flash Forward series, remember?)

[oh yeah, Harold and Kumar...ppffftt~]

and much more of course~

isnt he cute? (>.<)

eventhough he is quite 'aged' for me

(man! he's 39 this year!)

i dont care! he's cute and he's Cho! hehe :D

but sadly, he's married to a pretty Japanese-American

and had a son :(

lets not fret ainur.. you still have your Cho Kyuhyun

he will soon be...

Korean-Malaysian

yawww!

(pardon for the delusional me peeps, i'm a girl)

L.O.L!!!

okay enough, till then, bye!

note: these pictures are not mine, they are taken from the Google image search engine.

love hunting

2011-02-10T18:45:00.004+08:00

okay people, i'm so bored today i should have agree with arifah

to go to time square today.

screw me..ungrateful child!

haih~ there, i did it again..its not like i dont have homework to do

or what

but i really dont have the mood to do it..not today..

waaaa~

how nice...

shopping, maybe watching movie and all

the problem here is not like i dont want to go out,

but when we go out we tend to spend money

but i have to count every penny to be sacrificed

because i really want to go to that

concert..

hhhmmm..just forget about it ainur..

this is for the sake of the boys..

patience is all you need :)

another lame post i know..

p/s: i really really really want to hunt, but i know i'm not fully equipped

had my eyes wide open, why would they open?

2011-02-08T00:21:00.012+08:00

oh this is just a random picture of the match

*the thorn among the roses, The Blues among The Reds*

well you know problems will never run out of ideas on how to be problematic.

they are just too absorbed with what they are doing.

i supposed if they are tired of being a problem,

then they will become more like a helper...

oh lame lah ainur~

bla bla bla

oh ya people, i have something to brag about here

*not that anyone ever read my blog, but who cares*

i got A- for my micro teaching practice man~

HOW COOL IS THAT? ^0^

hahahaha!

i'm so proud of myself

(and my group mates of course,without them i'm nothing)

seriously people..

do you know how hard to plan a lesson plan?

it is so hard that we felt very dry,used,tired, exhausted,

after finished planning ONE lesson plan

and and and..

not to mention controlling a class full of

a bunch of young adult pretending to be standard 4 students

hah~

i'm just thankful it when out well

hmm..oh! i really really really really really

want to go

that concert!

SUPER JUNIOR SS3 LIVE IN KUALA LUMPUR, MALAYSIA

19th March 2011

being in this beautiful sapphire blue sea

holding banners, light sticks, and dream

ah~my dream

a once in a life time dream

my life.

please strength..

please be strong enough

i'm begging you

please do whatever it takes

to fulfill this lifetime mission

i promise you i wont ask for any other thing this year

hopefully my dream will come true

ameeen~

i really have to sleep now

but i really cant put my eyes shut

yeah yeah

i'm trying right now

bye.

happy birthday cho kyuhyun love =)

2011-02-02T23:13:00.003+08:00

hopefully you'll get all the things you want in this world

stay healthy

love your hyungs as much as they love you

be successful in everything you do

i love you

forever and ever

hope you will be happy hey! its your day

saranghae cho kyuhyun oppa =)

FERNANDO TORRES ='(

2011-02-01T22:48:00.004+08:00

i'll keep this short because i'm not good in saying good bye :'(

ok, so here it goes...

farewell, farewell,

i'll keep your poster on the wall of my heart,

but i shall tear it from the wall of my room,

be happy at the Blues field,

but i should warn you,

you don't look good in blue

so yeah;

we the Reds will fight and prove to you,

even without you, we can do this

this is not a warning letter

but a rather sad note from a supporter,

a die hard fan, who is really hurt right now

well...

good luck and all the best lad

we'll miss you..so much..esp stevie the capt :'(

"his armband prove he was a red, TORRES TORRES

'You'll Never Walk Alone' it said, TORRES TORRES

we bring the lad from the sunny Spain

he get the ball, he scores again

FERNANDO TORRES LIVERPOOL'S NO.9"

i'll never have the chance to sing this chant at the Kop ='(

autumn in my heart

2011-01-30T23:21:00.006+08:00

yes..this is the feeling i'm having now..so bright, so breezy, so light..i'm not good at this but i can feel it..i can feel the emotion and the mood..i know..its quite pathetic for me to feel this way but i cant help it..i'm so happy i can smile in my sleep..yes people..i'm so in love..i'm in love with him..oh this is so cheesy..not that he loves me back..but who cares..can i at least be happy of what he had done for me tonight? oh i didn't tell you right? he sang for me..yes..got it? he did sing for me..you tell me,how on earth a girl NOT be falling head over heals when a boy sing for her? oh the sweetest song ever..the truth is, i still like him..and when he did things like this i cant help but to fall even more for him..can i? can i? i know everything about that girl but i really cant stop my feeling towards him..its like,the more i tried,the more it wont leave my heart..

this is the lyrics of the song:

-It's hard for me to say "Thanks" or "Bye" to You

All I can say to you is "Thank You" or "Thanks so much"

eveything is brand new to me, so I'm a little unsure

How should I say it? It's still really awkward

Even today, I worry about it

Hopefully we'll be able to have a "Banmal Relationship"

even though its stil kind of awkward

rather than saying "gomawoyo" (thank you)

let me hear more intimate words

We can have a "Banmal Relationship"

one step at a time, slowly walk closer

look at me in the eye

can you tell me "I love You"

its hard being a secret admirer...

thanks for the song chingu, gomawo =)

and btw, this song is from yonghwa and seohyun, wgm couple~

sleep talking

2011-01-16T03:14:00.003+08:00

"my mind is so full right now that i don't even realize i was doing all these silly things..i mean, what did i think? how can i be that foolish? am i that stupid? oh please..."

>i should be hitting the sack now..sleeping, dozing over..but instead, i'm here..i couldn't shut my eyes close as i saw tons of awaiting problems as soon as i closed them..well not problems..things in life that need to be solve..oh i'm so miserable now..what am i suppose to do? is this worrying over unnecessary things like one of my lecturer always said? i don't think so...i think i'm definitely worrying over certainly necessary important things..things that make my life..they are what people live for..what people need in their life..their soul nourisher..its not love i'm talking about here..its many things all of you disregard because of love..

>and you! i don't give a damn about what you are thinking of her! i don't like you like i did before..you pathetic little loser! i wish you can read this, loser! now my hatred isn't for her anymore but more to that annoying fuzzy feelings towards you..you sore loser! clever me huh? i can control myself..you thought me fool! set a barrier, remember? thanks by the way

>"sometimes..just sometimes, i can be so sickly annoyed by the people i love the most..not necessarily a guy, it can be family or friends"

>please.....i'm so tired right now...

70th, the end of 2010

2010-12-31T06:57:00.003+08:00

2010....

where new chapters of my life begun and new characters found, i can barely recall what i had done in this year if you ask me in large but i'll surely remember them in chunks, overall, it is a good year. and even though 2010 will be was a good year i will still remember the beautiful memories i had captured and stored in my treasure box. my mind...

write a short entry for this on purpose.

i'm not good at saying goodbyes :')

so long 2010, u'll be remembered don't worry

hello~ 2011, please be nice to me :)

you'll never walk alone guys..

2010-11-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

good luck guys..i always have faith in my team..

bury them!

and sayangku torres..please give me good goals okay?

ynwaxoxo :)

so what, if i shed blood tears?!

2010-11-28T19:44:00.015+08:00

huhuhuhu :'(

so what, if he asked for only my phone number and not others..

so what, if he said i'm his best friend..

so what, if he treats me well..

so what, if he talks to me more than he talks to any of my girl friends..

so what, if he smiles the sweetest smile to me when we met..

so what, if i'm feeling the rushing flush of blood pumping to my face when we talk even a simple talk..

so what, if he cares for me..

so what, if he waves to me so wholeheartedly when we said goodbye..

so what, if he makes me feel comfortable talking about anything with him..

so what, if suddenly i know he likes that other girl..

so what, if he already told me about his feelings toward that girl..

so what, if i feel pain in my chest when he told me how much he likes that other girl..

so what, if he ever found out about my feelings..

so what, if i love him..

so what, if i miss him..

so what, if he might not even care..

so what, if i'm hurt bad enough i might cry my lungs out..

so what, if i sound so pathetic here..

so what, if i'm confuse with this relationship..

so what, if i'm the only one who are confuse with this relationship..

so what, if i want it to be more than just friends..

so what? so what? so what?

= i really don't know and it doesn't matter :'(

S.M. THE BALLAD - Miss You

2010-11-28T19:12:00.000+08:00

their angelic voices...i'm so touched :')

Super Junior SHINee | Bonamana (미인아) Lucifer Remix / Mashup

2010-11-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

oh super duper awesome!

aren't they look like dolls?

2010-11-03T14:23:00.001+08:00

so beautiful...

my darling and my sweethearts ♥

2010-10-19T02:15:00.015+08:00

ok this post is especially made

because i cant sleep

*laugh*

this is me :)

this is my darling

CHO KYUHYUN

cant wait to see you next year!

♥ kyuhyun oppa saranghaeo ♥

and of course

all of you dear ♥

♥teukie oppa♥ heechul oppa♥ siwon oppa♥ yesung oppa♥ shindong oppa♥

♥sungmin oppa♥ donghae oppa♥ wookie oppa♥

♥hankyung oppa♥ kibum oppa♥ kangin oppa♥

cant wait! cant wait! ;)

my fault yea my fault

2010-10-16T00:52:00.004+08:00

haha! screw me! i kept on reminding myself that yesterday was elly's n today is nobody's. the whole day i tried to do something and anything NOT related to this topic. eventually, i did actually forget about today but because of this screw moment: i was happily browsing my facebook and then on the side bar, birthday: his name . nice one facebook! you did screw up my plan! hahaha! i cant forget the date. its like it already stuck in my memory FOREVER. please~ i need a break... oh and you know what i did when i realized that today is his birthday? this is the silliest part i think. i TEXT MESSAGE him! *shit!* ''happy birthday! may Allah bless you! have a blast one k'' with a big smiley. hahaha! :'(

maybe some of you will say, whats the big deal? its only a wish. yeah true. its only a wish,but whenever i accidently think about anything related to him, i feel the pain. a stabbing pain. so painful i can hardly breath. you didn't know so shut the hell up!

ok i'm totally not prepared for multimedia paper. scared. enough said.

''i'm just a little too not over you"

bye.

this doesn't need a day you know =)

2010-10-15T00:16:00.004+08:00

date: 15th October

venue: anytime, anywhere

dear elly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

though you are not reading this, i just want you to know how lucky i am to have you as a friend, a sister, a pal, my BUDDY.i love you and always will do.

take good care of yourself and always be happy.

till then, hope to see you soon! =)

have a good day BUDDY!

my friend's =)

2010-10-06T22:24:00.001+08:00

i stole this from my friend's favorite quotation @ facebook =)

they sound so good

and i desperately need some soul enrichment now..

i'm still in grieving mode yeah and

to be truth i didn't do my study for tomorrow yet..

i just can't :'( serious shit i'm trying hard but i can't

i'll share here =)

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"

"My deepest fear is not that i'm inadequate, but my deepest fear is i am powerful beyond measure, it is our light not our darkness that frightens us the most, we ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

PLEASE ALLAH..GIVE ME STRENGTH :'(

girls and guys part2

2010-10-06T01:16:00.003+08:00

the answer is:

the girl is head over heels crazy in love with the guy,

while the guy is having a crush with another girl...

the girl is severely heart broken right now

while the guy does not know anything

laugh! laugh! laugh!

dear ♥

2010-10-03T12:21:00.005+08:00

salam...

sorry peeps, i'm in my 'emo' mood,

you know..girls~

ryte! =)

so i want to dedicate this old song to my dear secret crush..

haha!

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset

She's going off about something that you said

'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like

And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts

She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans

I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself

Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down

You say you're fine, I know you better than that

Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers

She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know?

Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry

And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams

Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door

All this time, how could you not know?

Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe

You belong with me

-Taylor Swift-

=) to my dear secret crush... i wish you all the best for the upcoming exam :) i'll pray for the both of us ok! eventhough we are thousands miles apart, my thoughts for you will always stay in my heart ♥

girls and guys...

2010-09-24T07:12:00.001+08:00

hurm..

how should i start this, better do this quick or else~

ok the problem with girls is their melting point is very low when it comes to love..

they are too easy to melt when a guy do something

SWEET or FUNNY or CARED for her etc etc..

but

actually

the guy does that for almost every friends(girl) he has..

misunderstanding will occur here

while the girl is head over heels crazy in love with the guy,

the guy's feeling towards the girl remains...

ORDINARY FRIENDS

and while the girl is busy making big fuss(with their girlfriends) if someone else talk to that guy,

JEALOUS i should say,

the guy does not know..

unless......

that guy is also having a crush with the girl

but does not have the guts to confess,

dont worry, he surely will someday...

but,

the most pathetic scene here is when...

the girl is head over heels crazy in love with the guy,

while the guy is having a crush with another girl...

let the time and destiny decide it~

few things...

2010-08-09T21:50:00.004+08:00

firstly,

2morrow (29th shaaban) we'll see if the 'anak bulan' shows itself..positive or not i just want to say good luck and all the best with our holy month of ramadhan this year..may all of us achieve our piece of mind in this holy month by increasing our ibadah by doing tarawih and all the amalan sunat..amin...

secondly,

BPL season 10/11 will be starting soon..next week will be the kickoff game with Liverpool (my beloved team) facing Arsenal.. i'm so scared, eventhough i do have my faith on them, but God knows how terrible they were in last season campaign. hhmm.. you know what, lets just face it, i believe they will perform this year. please Mr. Roy Hodgson, bring us back our Reds Lads.. we really miss the real aggressive them.. cut me open, i'll bled red...

thirdly,

i'm terribly in problem right now..i think, this is because.. before this i used to procrastinate my assignments, so now i have tones and hips and piles of unfinished work. hurm.. no other people to be blame accept for me, myself and i. now, as i type this entry, i'm still working on my dear assignments.. ok i better stop now.

till then, toodles! ainur ya..hwaiting!

it takes two to tango..

2010-08-09T00:38:00.003+08:00

yeah...i'll remember that...

you might never know...

2010-08-06T13:47:00.003+08:00

i really hope you know..

but not now..

maybe later..

when the time comes..

hhhmm..

but..

you might never know..

because you did't even try..

but its ok..

i'm ok with dat..

i'm used to it..

its ok..

seriously..

you take care ok..

난 당신처럼..

revenge of the furry creature!

2010-05-28T12:55:00.005+08:00

I watched Furry Vengeance with Arifah, Farah, and Ika last Wednesday at Jusco Bukit Raja..

hilarious funney movie indeed :D hahahaha!!

good for relaxing your mind...

but thats not what i want to write here ;)

BEFORE the movie started, we went to Jusco (downstairs) and buy ice cream.. :)

and we manage to smuggle it to the movie theater!!

yeah~

i mean THAT BIG ICE CREAM CONTAINER!!!

hehehe..

so proud with ourself.. ngeeee~ :D

during the movie, we were so busy passing the ice cream until the guys behind us notice it

and started talking about us

"sempat lagi seludup masuk ice cream! besar pulak tu! huiyo~Baskin Robbin!"

(padahal Walls je :P)

hahaha! a very fun outing with the girls..hehe..

with Ika having a nice shopping spree (got all she wanted, shoes, baju and bag..WOWW!)

while Farah and me being a good(angelic) sister bought baju for our adik(s)[70% off] hehehe..good trick!

overall...it was indeed a fun and relaxing outing

not to forget eating at Johnny's like a monster (hyperbole..we are all wanita melayu terakhir)

hahahaha!!

thnks girls! I had fun that day!

till then.. toodles~

assalamualaikum...

2010-05-26T21:17:00.004+08:00

...
hello...hello people :) remember me?
nowadays i don't feel like blogging.. i don't know y.. mybe bz+lzy :D
hurm, just finish my methods of teaching's paper last Monday(i love my Lesson Plan!) n yet hv to face critical appreciation this saturday.. still studying,,
try to understand the whole plot, themes, characterizations, foreshadowing, symbolisms, etc. etc. etc..
short stories : Everyday Use, Piece of String, Gimpel the Fool, and Old Man With Enormous Wing..
wish me luck guys! thanks a whole bunch! :)
...

alangkah bagusnya kalau...

2010-02-08T10:59:00.004+08:00

assalamualaikum...

sabtu lepas sy ke surau berdekatan dgn rumah bersama k.una. ini pertama kali kami ke surau selepas hampir 2 bulan berpindah ke taman tadisma ini. suraunya bersaiz sederhana besar, tetapi kemudahannya sgt hampir kpd sempurna. berhawa dingin, sgt harum, bilik air yg sgt bersih, karpet yg tebal, suasana yg sgt tenang untuk beibadat. kami berkenalan dgn beberapa org makcik dan kakak yg mnjadi pengunjung tetap surau itu. mereka sgt peramah. tapi sayang...tiada seorang pun remaja perempuan sebaya kami disitu..tiada seorang pun muslimat muda sesaf dengan kami. remaja lelaki memang ada tapi itupun kerana ada sebuah sekolah tahfiz lelaki berdekatan dgn surau. merekalah yg memenuhi surau selama ini. salah seorang daripada makcik disitu kelihatan sgt gembira kerana hari itu saf kami penuh. kami bersembahyang magrib dan isyak di situ. imam yg mengalunkan surah2 ketika kami bersembahyang itu sgt merdu suaranya, mendayu-dayu menggamit ketenangan di hati kecil ini. selepas solat, kami bersalaman dgn jemaah muslimat yg lain, kami berdakapan mesra mengeratkan sillaturrahim sekaligus mengeratkan ukhwah. kami berazam untuk menghadirkan diri ke surau lebih kerap selepas ini.

selepas ke surau kami bercadang untuk makan malam di kfc extreme park. lgpun mmg kaksu sedang study bersama kawan-kawannya disitu. lokasinya tidak jauh dari rumah kami dan tidak smpai 30 langkah dari surau td. hanya dipisahkan oleh sebatang jalan. tetapi disana kemeriahannya seperti ada karnival sedang berlangsung. anak-anak muda memenuhi segenap ruang kawasan extreme park itu. di tempat skateboarding, futsal, rockclimbing, setiap sudut kelihatan remaja seusia kami sedang bersuka ria. ketawa gembira. ini belum masuk soal batas pergaulan dan aurat yg terdedah. timbul sedikit rasa tidak puas hati di hati ini. sebenarnya agak marah dan selebihnya sedih. alangkah bagus jikalau mereka ini mengambil inisiatif mengimarahkan surau seketika sebentar tadi. melakukan aktiviti sihat ini tidak salah, tapi perlulah seimbang bukan? entahlah...ini semua hanya apa yg terbuku di hati.

sy bukanlah seorang yg sempurna, sgt byk kekurangan dlm diri sy ini. tetapi melihatkan kpd orang-orang sekeliling yg lebih teruk daripada sy, (maaf kpd siapa2 yg terasa..sy x bermaksud) sy jd takut. inilah realiti, kalau dalam generasi sy sudah teruk sebegini rupa, bagaimana dgn generasi akan dtg? siapa yg akan membimbing negara yg tercinta ini? layakkah mereka? sy terfikir...

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."
-Maria Robinson-

syed n ayie..my sweetheart darling~

2010-01-16T16:22:00.005+08:00

(^ ^)
this post is specially dedicated to my 2 new love of my life syed n ayie..i love them so much..
please take care of them Ya Allah..
i'll love them as much as i could..insyaallah~
_________________________________
Kittens kittens everywhere
Kittens chewing on my hair
Kittens climbing up my jeans
Kittens hanging from the screens
There's a kitten on each shoulder
Will they do this when they're older?
Kittens fighting on the chairs
Kittens tumbling down the stairs
There's a kitten on my head
There's a kitten in the bread!
There's a kitten in my shoe
I don't believe we just have two!
___________________________________
-kitten kitten by William Wordsworth-

this is me :)

my adorable babies sleeping

ayie : bouncy baby

syed : genuinely graceful

notes : they r actually female kittens :P

___________________________

ketika cinta bertasbih...

2010-01-14T16:55:00.004+08:00

Bertuturlah cinta
Mengucap satu nama
Seindah goresan sabdamu dalam kitabku
Cinta yang bertasbih
Mengutus Hati ini
Ku sandarkan hidup dan matiku padamu
Bisikkan doaku
Dalam butiran tasbih
Kupanjatkan pintaku padamu Maha Cinta
Sudah di ubun-ubun cinta mengusik resah
Tak bisa kupaksa walau hatiku menjerit
Ketika cinta bertasbih nadiku berdenyut merdu
Kembang kempis dadaku merangkai butir cinta
Garis tangan tergambar tak bisa aku menentang
Sujud syukur padamu atas segala cinta
# love..we should multiply it..not divide it..

Your Daily Horoscope: December 12, 2009 (Aries)

2009-12-12T12:58:00.003+08:00

You may very well feel the light of inspiration today, Aries. The ideas you get today could inspire you to try new things and activities to help you re-start your natural sense of excitement and curiosity. You need to schedule some time away from your responsibilities and work so that you can let your imagination free during quiet time alone. As long as you don't lose touch by being ready to escape into a fantasy every time things get rough, you could find yourself involved in a new and exciting interest or activity.
...
:)

...

2009-12-11T01:45:00.003+08:00

i dont know...

shall i compare thee to a summer's day?

2009-12-06T03:37:00.006+08:00

Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

-william shakespeare-

salam...hey!

its been a long time since i last write..well, its not like i hv so many stories to be written here..just to remind me to may be writing a bit about whats going on with my life now..bcause i know there are people who are following this blog n crtainly want to see some new post here..

my second semester just started for 2 weeks but i can barely catch my breath..assignments had been given n 2 of the presentations are to be ready by this monday..dont get me wrong,i'm not complaining about this here..just giving some information about the latest me. this monday, 1 or 2 of us will be chosen to do an english game for classmates, well of course my classmates are big enough to play this games which practically hv to be a game for teenager n its a must with 1 condition, students can not write in this activity,instead..there must be a physical activities n some speaking..well, if its not for the strict n fiercing lecturer this is not a very hard task..i'm planning for a mime game..students hv to guess what their friends representing for..its not a hard game, just for fun..n easy the tense we get in the class..well,lets just wait n see for the result :) wish me luck guys! i'm a student teacher!

last night my friend buzz me on the ym.. the last time he buzz me was i think when i was still in my holiday which is 2 or 3 weeks ago.. after a brief how r u, n what r u doing now..he suddenly ask me this~

friend : is it wrong if we hv a lot of girlfriends?

ainur : well..it depends.. if they r just an ordinary friend, y not..

n after a whole bunch of q&a, i realised the problem he had is he sort of like this girl but he thinks he is not a good match to her..well i think, everybody is not perfect! i started giving advice which i'm not sure will work out for him or not..he might think i dont understand him, but believe me..i do understand his situation..i told him to confess the truth to that girl so at least if the girl dont like him in return..he can throw away that feeling from his heart..before that crush feeling grows bigger to love..n when he had trow that feeling out of his heart, he can fill in the space with a greater love to Him..since he said, when he is thinking about this stuff, his mind is not fully refresh..hhmm.. easy for me to say it i guess..n dats were the exact words he said to me..but then i replied, well sorry if i was acting like i'm not understanding ur situation..but i'm giving u some advice as a friend, we are only 18..for some reasons..our heart n mind is craving for a love between the opposite gender, n i'm not excluded..mybe it is just ur teenage heart..dont take it seriously..just take it as one of the crushes u hv for a girl,but this time, mybe a bigger crush, but still a crush..

n for that, he thanks me..for making him realised it..i'm not sure if the thanks needed bcos i'm not exactly helping..but i welcome it back..''dont forget ur studies! its not cheap to fly u to egypt although ur family might not feel it..but its not cheap..take care ok..salam~''

not so happy with the result against blackburn last night but for some reasons i was like expecting this to happen..n its not a right thing to do..its like, better than we loose..i dont like it..we hv to be winning,not be happy with a draw..hhmm.. i miss liverpool winning in a row n scoring heaps of goals..dont get me wrong,i'm not changing my family crest..i still hv a red blood..it is my vow..i just miss the glory times..but i'm not ashamed..not at all..it mybe not our luck..i still hv the hope..YNWA~

i miss my best buddy NURILYA ELLYNA...hope she is fine with her life..i'm so sorry i didnt hv the time..u take care ok dear~

''someday everything will all make perfect sense. so for now, laugh at the confusion,smile through the tears,and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason"

hey!

2009-11-14T11:44:00.003+08:00

I'm counting the days since I began to live without you
I'm covered in rain but it feels just like it's the sun
And it don't get me down, don't come around
You're better off leaving town, I'm fine here alone now without you
Hey! I'm screaming at you, hey! Don't care enough to
Write you a letter now that I'm doing better alone
Hey! I'm screaming at you, hey! Don't care enough to
Write you a letter now that I'm doing better
Better off without you
You're stuck in a world and make believe that I can see it
I gave it a chance, she must be crazy not to leave
You're never gonna bring me down, don't come around
You're better off leaving town, I'm fine here alone now without you
Giving it up, now you take it away
All of my time, now get out of my way
Never been lost in anyone, it's me they want, without you I'm insane
So hear me now screaming out your name
__________
-mitchel musso-

i'm ok .. seriously... :)

i'm a boring person,, am i? hurm..lame~

2009-11-09T13:51:00.008+08:00

u know what people..nothing is special about reading my blog :(
i mean..look at all of u,, u sure did hv a lot to write in ur blog..all which has been beautifully written by the creative u..
all ur great stories, experients, feelings, they are brilliant!
me? i dont even hv the story to write so how am i supposed to write creatively?
my life is dull n boring..the colours came rarely..
ohh...i feel bad :(
i do hv stories..but i think, they shouldnt be posted at blog..they are far too what we call it..personal..yeah..
i think only certain people can know about that..
and some of them..i'd like to keep it as my pretty little secret~
or
should i write them here?

what if people dont want to know about them?
huh??
huh???
huhhh???
i dont care!
this is my blog! i hv the right!
ok..ok..so now i'm making this a big deal..mybe i'm just not into blogging to cry my lungs out..but i really think i hv to write more..
because this blog:
look dead!
not real!
lame!
ohh.. simply pathetic!
do i hv a choice?
ahhh!..this sounds stupid..i actually hv a lot more to write
thats for sure :)
but i just.. mybe i dont like to publish it in blog..
so whats the use of this blog?
or
i'm just too lazy?
ohh..i'm confused..
is it because i'm locked in this house too long?
help me people! help me! i'm crapping over here!
lame~
i'm totally insane.. i lost my insanity!
ohh..what am i going to do?!

Note : ainur in this blog is not the real ainur..she is lost in her house and cant be found forever..

probably because she is trapped in her house..

she lost her mind because her tv exploded during the manu vs chelsea match n

this lead to the lack of phineas n ferb's show that she usually watch everyday at 9 a.m.

and actually.. SHE IS FREAKIN BORED!!

nak tgok tv laa!! huu~ :'(

astaghfirullahalazim...this is all ridiculous!

sorry people..

i hv to stop now..this is going mad~

take care :)

salam ya jamilah

2009-11-04T18:10:00.002+08:00

wsalm..

take care dear~

glorious scenes~

2009-10-26T17:07:00.007+08:00

these are some pictures of the match liverpool vs man utd!

glad we made it!

2009-10-26T01:20:00.006+08:00

reds turn the devils white:)

see~

i told u , u can do it! just believe in urself!

nice work lads!

keep that spirit in ur upcoming matches!

YNWA~

GOOD LUCK LIVERPOOL!

2009-10-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

ATTACK!!

SHOOT!

ATTACK!!

SHOOT!

ATTACK!!

SHOOT!

YNWA~

nick my love =)

2009-10-13T09:08:00.011+08:00

his beautiful voice, his innocence-looked face, his charming appearence, and the cutest,, his curly hair that i admire the most,,

but some of these info below..i never knew before (including dat he is actually 1 year younger than me, i thought all the 3 of them r older than me,uh, damn!) so i would like to share these

info with all of u!

Nicholas Jerry "Nick" Jonas (born September 16, 1992) is an American singer-songwriter and actor best known as one of the Jonas Brothers, a pop-rock band he formed with his brothers Joe and Kevin. The Jonas Brothers originally started as an attempted solo singing career for Nick, but when his brothers Kevin and Joe sang backup for him, the record producer liked their sound and signed all three of them. He currently stars in the Disney channel original series JONAS as Nick Lucas, alongside his brothers.

nick was born in Dallas, Texas, the son of Denise, a former sign language teacher and singer, and Paul Kevin Jonas Sr., a songwriter, musician, and former ordained minister at a Pentecostal Assemblies of God church. He was raised in Wyckoff, New Jersey and homeschooled by his mother.

He was diagnosed with Type I diabetes at the age of 13 and wears an OmniPod insulin pump to help him manage his diabetes. He has developed the Change for the Children Foundation. Partnering with five different charities, their goal is to raise money and awareness for diabetes. He also developed a public service announcement with the Washington Nationals to support diabetes care at Children's National Medical Center in Washington, D.C.

nick's carrier started when he was discovered at the age of 6 in a barber shop while his mother was getting her hair cut and was referred to as a professional show business manager. At the age of 7, he began performing on Broadway. He had acted in several plays, including A Christmas Carol (in 2000 as Tiny Tim and Scrooge at eight), Annie Get Your Gun (in 2001 as Little Jake), Beauty and the Beast (in 2002 as Chip), and Les Misérables (in 2003 as Gavroche). After Les Misérables closed, he performed in The Sound of Music (as Kurt) at the Paper Mill Playhouse.

Jonas Brothers After meeting with Jonas and hearing the song, "Please Be Mine", written and performed by the brothers, Daylight/Columbia Records had decided to sign the three as a group act. After being signed to Columbia, the brothers considered naming their group "Sons of Jonas" before settling on the name "Jonas Brothers."

It's About Time, the brothers first album was released on August 8, 2006. According to the band's manager, it was only a "limited release" of a little over 50,000 copies. Because Sony was not interested in further promoting the band, the Jonas Brothers then considered switching labels. The band was ultimately dropped by Columbia Records in early 2007.

After shortly being without a label, the Jonas Brothers signed with Hollywood Records in February 2007. Around the same time, brothers began appearing in commercials for Baby Bottle Pops, singing the jingle. Their self-titled second album, Jonas Brothers, was released on August 7, 2007. It reached number five on the Billboard Hot 200 chart in its first week. Its sold since sold over three million copies worldwide.

The Jonas Brothers' third studio album, A Little Bit Longer, was released in the United States on August 12, 2008. It sold over 2 million copies worldwide. The Jonas Brothers were listed number 9 on the richest pop acts of 2008 with Coldplay and AC/DC making over 62 million

broken heart poem

2009-10-06T10:31:00.005+08:00

I'll be fine, again.

It doesn't feel right to wake up without you.

Not when I can still hear your voice in these halls.

I painted your room to cover up everything,

but everyday I'm still trapped in these walls.

How I wish I could feel your touch.

Or even just your breath upon my neck.

I'd go insane if I tried to move on.

The only thing I can do, is try to forget.

They say everything happens for a reason,but why must I always feel this way?

I never would have imagined you'd slip from my hands,

leaving me behind, in misery, and pain.

The Doctor tells me the pain's all in my head,

but I know for a fact I feel it in what's left of my heart.

She won't prescribe me some medication,though I know she will soon have to start.

my friends all say I'll be fine.

They tell me to just move on.If only things were that simple,

but I can't let you go even when you are gone.

I removed your pictures from the wall,

but I still see your face when I close my eyes.

It's hard to deal with all of this sober,

but everyone says I'll heal in time.

by Babigurlbroken

posted on 09/19/2009

i like dis poem..note dat Babigurlbroken is not me..i just like this poem because i can feel what she feel..i'm touched.. :'( dis girl is really writing her heart out..
~if u want to see other poems like dis poem..go to http://www.poemofquotes.com/members/popular/broken-heart-poems
n dis http://www.poemofquotes.com/members/popular/funny-poems

BIG MATCH..BIG HOPE..YNWA~

2009-10-04T19:58:00.005+08:00

GOOD LUCK LADS...

OUR PRAY ARE ALWAYS WITH U..

DO THE BEST OK?

YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE~

PLEASE BEAT THE BLUES..PLEASE...

october....

2009-10-02T08:34:00.002+08:00

exam

special occasion

sayang~~

2009-09-13T11:40:00.003+08:00

oh sygku intan payung.. sorry kte lme sgt x cntct awk.. kte bz gle.. dgn assignment x abes2, klas gnti sane sini, test, quiz, tensi la gak.. ni pon dis week x bole blik..sorry ye~

awk sihat x?

hope awk sentiase sihat...

bju rye kte x peach sgt la elly,,

kaler ala2 brick red..

xpe2..

nnti kte dah ckp ngn ibu kte nak bju kaler peach btul

(^^)

dah nak rye dah ni..

take care tau!

sye syg kamu~

TODAY IS THE DAY =)

2009-08-29T11:26:00.002+08:00

hari ini...

sye

akan

rumah

ilya ellyna!!!

*xcited sungguh :)

ELLY!! PENTING NI!!

2009-08-28T13:42:00.004+08:00

ni map nak gi msu..

senang je,,elly kn dah biase ngn shah alam kn..

kalau x clear tgok kat sini

http://www.msu.edu.my/v6/university_location.php

hehe...

good luck!

(^^)

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DREAM...

2009-08-13T09:21:00.005+08:00

last nyte,, i watched SEPI,, it was a very nice movie,, i cried horribly ...
yeah,, its a 'cerite lme' ,, kaksu rcomend me to watch it
cerite-cerite sedih yg patut ditengok!
-> sepi, cinta, pensil, n lots more shes been promoting to me..
how kabir bakhtiar plan the story is awesome and how the pelakons act were spectacular! the best actor is of course afdlin shauki :)
my favourite story between dat 3 story is iman's story..although baizura kahar's acting is not really good,, but i found her story is really near to me..
overall,, good movie it was,, imagine if i watched it at cinema~
hhmm..totally a blew!! :D

i dreamt of him this morning...see, i slept late last night, so i'm very sleepy this morning..so when they all(ayah, ibu, alya) had gone to work n school,, i fell asleep again...
it was only from 8-9 a.m sleep..a 1 hour sleep..but when i woke up..i feel like i was sleeping for ages! like it was part of my life...the missing part of it..
in my dream me n him(only elly n christina knows him) met in this one wedding of our friend..he never notice me before..never! i think..(it was a secret crush..i like him from the first day i saw him..) but at dat wedding,, we keep on meeting eyes n it feels different..and real..like he was also feeling the same feeling i felt..and it really feel so real..
so when the wedding was over, i was on my way to my car (already dreaming of getting my license..)when suddenly he called me..
''ainur!! ainur kn? erm..kte satu klas kn? u look pretty today.." i just nervously nod,,shyly smile~~ :)
the fact that he was standing there, talking to me was a real blow to me..what more,, he said i'm pretty?? is it true?? although it was just a dream..i can feel my cheeks hot ,blushing...as far as i know..in dat dream..i was just like me in this real world..still big,not slim, still wearing a tudung, my real self..
he ask me to join him for a minum-minum anywhere near,, suddenly i'm so scared..mybe it was just a betting his friends and him are plying around..but his face is genuinely honest, i cant stop myself from saying 'ok' ..(i thought it was a great desicion since i will never get that chance in the real world)
during dat minum-minum moment,,he told me this shocking statement..i remembered it clearly..masih terngiang-ngiang lg tau!
"i tau u mybe terkejut kn i tbe2 dtg kat u td, tbe2 ajak gi minum, hhmm..i pon xtau..actually..i dah lame suke kat u..u comell sgt..n baik..but i dont know how to bgtau dis thing to u..u know n u see..i'm not a very good guy..u seems so nice..i tkut u x trime i..tp ble tgok lynn dgn alias bahagie td..i x bole tahan diri i..i tkut u pegi kat org lain..will u marry me ainur..please..dont say no.."
my tears run down my cheeks..i cant believe it..it almost feel like real..almost..n suddenly the scene changed..
with 'cinta antara kita' song being the background music of dat scene..we were having a sweet moment together..walking at the park, eating together, laughing..and then when he was staring softly into my eyes..
i was awake~
still smiling of dat sweet moment..i tried really hard to continue my sleep n my dream..but i cant..

i dont know what is the meaning of this dream

it might be just a 'mainan tidur'

mybe bcos i watched SEPI..(he really looks like sein ruffedge in dat movie)

but

i'm happy..eventhough it is just a dream..

at least i had feel those happy feeling being together with him..

even it is just for a while..

its enough,, more than enough~

in real world..i'm still his biggest secret admire..

*menyukai seseorang yang bukan muhrim yg berlainan jantina tanpa si dia mengetahuinye adalah satu jihad*

(somebody told me that)

p/s : tomorrow,, test jpj..wish me luck friends~

TO MY DEAREST FRIEND~

2009-08-13T02:37:00.003+08:00

dear..i'm so sorry for u..i'm so sorry dat ur heart is so hurt now..i'm sorry i dont do anything anything to help u..u might think i'm not concern about u anymore now ryte?? the truth buddy..i'm still thinking of u everyday, hows ur lyfe there treating u, hows ur study, hows everything!..i always want to call u n talk till we drop, share our stories, giggles together, cry together, ..but i'm just a student dat will use a lot of money for other things other than reloading my prepaid..so i'm sorry buddy..i'm really,really,really sorrry!

finally~

2009-08-13T02:33:00.002+08:00

MY BLOG IS FINALLY CAN BE OPEN AGAIN!! YIPPE!

poor kak una~

2009-08-06T11:56:00.003+08:00

poor kak una.. kne than msuk wad,, scary..
tomorrow is english for academic writing paper..
until today,,3 papers are considered done,, they are~
english language awareness
islamic studies
intro to literature

abg said..there's already been 12 death for h1n1..

hope kak una will be alright..

so tired~

2009-08-02T11:56:00.003+08:00

just arrived from kampong,, so tired of yesterday's kenduri!!
tomorrow my exam start but i dont prepare anything yet..hadoi,,
fell like i'm going to have a fever again..please no..
i need panadol..now..i mean..NOW!! :(
i must study!

balik kampung!

2009-07-31T00:32:00.003+08:00

nak ikut?
jom...
ahad bru balik :(
kat kg x bole on9
next week exam!!!
kat kg ade knduri sure x blaja
TIDAK!!!!!
hhhhmmm~

OMG!!!

2009-07-29T14:23:00.004+08:00

oh my GOD!! i ''accidently" missed my islamic studies class n today ade quiz!...huhu...terbgun lmbat,,thank god kakshu , wan , n some other students also didnt turn up,, wan said, "jgn risau,,nnti aku jumpe ustz ckpkn..pape hal nnti aku gitau ko ek " but until now,,i cant stop myself from thinking about dis thing..x pnah lg escape klas kot,,n td wktu english language awareness, ade listening test..hadui!! x bole nak focus,, fikiran menerawang ke mne ntah..naseb sng je,, hhhmmm...

sick n scared :(

2009-07-26T15:59:00.003+08:00

i'm scared...i'm not feeling very well~ hope everything will be alright...

BEST2!! psar mlm pntai dlam...

2009-07-24T14:23:00.005+08:00

Errrmm...nak ckp ape lg..mmg SGT BEST!!! heaven of food~huhu..ctenye cmni...selase mlm rabu ari tu seperti biase kteorg~kaksu, kak una, is, wan, sha, ecah, n me(syaza x ikut sbb nak siapkn assignment) gi lepak kat ali mkn (semalam rafi)..tgh dok tunggu order seperti biase kaksu memulekn agenda biasenye iaitu berceloteh untuk mlm tersebut..."ishhkk..korg x boring ka ari2 ngadap muke mamak2 ni? ye la..kte ni kalau mkn, tak ali rafi..tak rafi ali..kaksu boring la gak''..lalu kak una mengutarakn sebuah idea yg bole dikatekn menarik..''a'ah la kaksu..btui gak tu..bosan! eh kaksu..jom pegi pasar mlam pantai dalam nak,,lama kte x pegi sana kn?'' tbe2 mate kaksu bersinar2 "brilliant idea usna!! apsal la aku x tepikir dari dlu kn..ha! bole tunjuk budak2 ni..korg msti x pnah pegi kn? kte pegi besok nak..since besok ari rabu..ok?"..mmg kteorg x pnah pegi pon..x pnah dgar pon name tu..kteorg pon ok je laa..sebab cm syok je,lgpon mmg agak bosan layan food mamak everyday..pastu kaksu n kak una cite..kat sane mcm bazar ramadan,,mcm2 gile ade..kalau dtg x lapa pon jd lapa lpas tgok mcm2 makanan kat situ..drpd utare, selatan, timur, sume laa jenis makanan..u name it..sume ade..wahh! lg teruje daku mendengar perkare itu dilontarkn..ni seronok ni! hehehe... SO...dipendekkan crite ari rabu pon menjelme dan berlalu dgn agak pntas(cet,,psar mlm punye psal)..hari rabu mmg sume budak fbmp ade program mentor-mentee,, n mmg slalunye budak tesl sgt jarang dilepaskn cpt..time table ckp 4-6 ,,,pkul 6 lah abesnye..kdg2 lebih..smpai2 bwah hostel tu dyeorg sume dah tunggu kat bwah..aduyai..''sorry2...kak una, nak gi tuka bju n letak beg jap ek..'' sepantas kilat daku berlari naek dan buat ape yg patut dan turun semule...since kteorg bertujuh,, teksi amek 2 la kn..3-4 org per teksi,, tahan teksi je dah 1 hal..disebabkn jln nak gi ktm sgt jem di wktu balik keje seperti itu, x byk teksi yg ingin merisikokn diri mereke menempuh dugaan tersebut,, abes minyak je kate dyeorg..aduh,, cmne ni..namun akhirnye ade gak la teksi yg sudi menghantar kteorg apabila melihat muke ksian kteorg..hehe..tactic bejaye! dlam ktm daku n is mndpt tmpat dudok mnekale mereke yg laen terpakse berdiri..sesampainye di stesen pantai dlam, kteorg pon kuar..igtkn kat luar tu je psar mlmnye,, rupe2nye x..kne naek teksi lg pulak bru smpai ke destinasi tersebut...tunggu teksi x la lme sgt..siap kaksu igt2 lupe jlan laa..smpai pkck teksi tu pon cm hangin je tp cool cos penumpang msti diutamekn(written on the side window of the texi) smpai kat tmpat tu pkck tu ckp,,''laaa..awat hang x ckap psar mlam je td..kn sng..flat itu la ini la..haduih" kaksu hanye mampu tersengih ''sorry pkck..'' kteorg yg laen hanye mampu bergelak! hahahaha!! Sekeluarnye daku dari teksi tersebut, terpampanglah deretan gerai yg sgt panjang di dpan mateku,, "waaaaaa~~~pnjgnye!!!" itulaa reaksi pertameku ketike melihat psar mlam tersebut..sgt pnjg!! dahla bercabang2..byk gle gerai! dgn bnggenye kaksu berkate "kn kaksu dah kate" hehehe...smentare mnunggu teksi 1 lagi smpai yg membawe kak una, is, dan wan..kteorg (ecah n sha sbenanye) telah dingorat oleh anggota2 RELA yg sepatutnye bertugas mnjage keamanan kawasn tersebut..''iishhkkk! rimas ah!'' kate ecah..nak buat cmne cahh, dah anda tu la lawa..haha..naseb baik la seminit due lpas tu teksi dyeorg smpai..kteorg pon memulakn misi memburu pada hari tersebut..aduyai..rambang mate dibuatnye..mcm2 ade,,ckp je,, goreng2, sup2, nasi2, buah2, rojak2, mee2, air2 jgn ckap ah kn..dari air2 cm kordial tu, ice blended, ABC, cendol, kelapa, haa! sume laa..setelah seround tgok2..akhirnye daku membeli rangke ayam n nasi ayam berempah(sebungkus rm3 je!! gile murah! ayam dah la besar!) n sepnjang jlan2 tu secawan air mate kucing n secawan air tembikai telah daku slurpp2..dan juge sebatang sushi malaysia yg menarik perhatian untuk di try..hhmm..agak sedap:) ha! lupe nak cte..kaksu n kak una teringin nak mkn laksa penang, n dyeorg mmg dah tau tmpat mne yg jual sedap.."makcik gothic tu usna!'' kate kaksu.. spontan mereke tergelak berdue..kteorg yg laen ni cm blank2 je..pastu dyorg ckp.."x pham ek..xpe2,,nnti tgok sendiri..hehehe" kate kaksu n kak una..sesampainye di tmpat yg dituju,, ternmpaklah kami sesusuk tubuh manusia yg nmpak rugged dan agak gothic, wktu dye menoleh ke arah kteorg tu terserlah kegothican make up beliau..dgn eyeliner yg tebal, lipstick yg agak gelap..wahh! mmg agak berumur untuk dressing cmtu..rsenye 40 lebih nak dkat 50 cmtu..kteorg sume terpegun..kaksu n kak una hanye mampu tersenyum melihat gelagat kteorg..tp mkck tu baek,,peramah sgt..kaksu smpat membodek,, "laksa mkck ni sedap tau..sedap sgt,,sebab tu kaksu jd pelanggan tetap dye" mkcik tu tesipu2 seketike,, ecah yg cm x than je tgok laksa tu trut meng-order satu 4 dye,, itulah,penangan mkck gothic~si ecah n sha nak bli apam balik yg nipis tu..alaa..yg rangup tu..ape nme dye? hhmmm..x igt la ape nme dye..korng tau2 sendiri la ek..hehe,,disebabkn agak byk org yg jual bnde tu,, n bnde tu nmpak sme je kat sume tmpat,dyorg decided nak bli kat org yg paling hensem yg jual..hahaha! ape ke jadahnye ntah,xde kne-mengene hnsem dgn sdap kowt..tp tu mmg dyorang, nak buat cmne..haha,,nak dijadikn cte ade 2 tmpat yg penjual dye agak hnsem..mmg btul, bole than la hensem mereke,hehe..dahlaa si ecah n sha ni dlam dilemma..haha!lwak tgok dyorg! masalah cm besa gle je! cm pk msalah negare!pdahahal nak plih mne satu je..last2,, kat due2 tmpat dyorang bli..hihi,kn senang..(tp duit sedie je laa)...hhhmmm~ Dalam pjlanan blik,,bau semerbak harum food2 yg kteorg bli melingkari ruang legar dlam ktm n teksi..hehe..lapa je org sekeliling kteorg, comform tension! dahla pnat blik keje ke ape, bau plak sedap2 from kteorg..hehehe,,sesampainye kteorg di campus cpt2 mandi n solat..pastu kteorg pon start la kenduri pada ari itu..wahh!! mmg mkn smpai kenyang ah mlm tu..n sambil mkn2 tu kaksu n kak una biasela..bercerite kisah2 hidup dyeorg..comment2 org..buat lwak jenake thap pecah perut..aduyai~smpai situ dlu kot psal psar mlm pntai dlam..tu je la kot buat mse skrang...till the next post..bye~ P/S : sesetengah part of dis story telah ditokok-tmbh dan diubah suai SIKIT untuk memberi kesan yg lebih dramatis..haha! :D

[[...ADULTHOOD...]]

2009-06-19T16:13:00.011+08:00

the title might be a lil bit..i dont know..for me..spooky..seeing the word being type itself make me feel very nervous..but it is wut is going on with my life now..i sumhow slowly entered a phase of life called..adulthood(gggrrr..goosebumps!!)..of course not totally change cos this phase took a whole lot of tyme.. 8th of june i was sent to management n science university(msu) shah alam for a course in dip TESL..i'm not sure wut i feel at dat tyme..not totally sad but also not totally happy..i'd rather called it nervous..i guess..nervous of a totally new lyfe,with new surrounding,new circle of friends,new people,new activities, but most of all maybe a new me..is it nervous or scared? i'm not sure...more like combination of both.. ok..let get to the story..true story of me for the past 10 days at msu..my hostel is located inside the campus which is not totally a campus..it is a 3 blocks shoplot with a compound transformed to become msu n college ptptl's temporary campus bcos our new campus still in consrtuction..my room have 2 double dacker bunk which made my room had a total of 4 people in it..quiet a big num for a small room like dat..but it doesnt matter nway..i like crowds..the more the marrier..hahahaha..besides,all my roommate still in their semester holidays(which is now clear that they are all seniors..i've met 2 of them n they are so nice..)the 1st four days was the orntation week..typically..groups being made,lots of teamwork,abg2 n kakak2 faci with their ridiculous yet fun tasks,talks,talks n more talks,hillarious group performances ..i sumhow like it..n then comes the part when we have to settle everything all by ourselve..the ptptn loan,the subject registration,the way to calculate our tuition fees,the meeting with our mentor n counsellor,the way to count credit hours,the way to look at the tricky timetable n lots more..thats when all the adulthood really started..i never done anything like all that stuffs alone before..n it felt really awfull when i had to decide sumthing without my parents to guide me..it really make me grow up faster than ever in that little period of time n tried to solve the problems all by myself..i felt like crying at some points of the times but then i realised this is exactly wuts going to happen to me after this..or mybe worse..so i got to adapt fast,be independent,know how to control myself,or i'll be lost..besides its not like i'm truely all alone..i got my mentor n counsellor to advice n teach me on everything..it is just that i'm the one who will do the things..not like before dis..in school..almost everything ayah n ibu will do..OK..done with dat..so..at msu..i know a whole lot of new friends..firstly my groupmate in orntation week..they are~taufiq,hazim,haziq,aiman,hafifi,sildesh,intan,aina,ain,ambiga,shira,jess,n chua..we are the ROCKSTARS ryte..hehe...enough with isabella either in search version or in the orchestra version..after dis we will all be going in different faculty but the memories remain..and my new roommates~sha,syaza, n lia..good to know u all n i hope share some great moments with all of u:) to other new friends~ecah,is,nazim, thanks for ur accompany..i do appreciated it..to my mentor~mdm nur izlin, please guide me maam..to my counsellor~kak malzana,thanks for all the time u spent to make me not so nervous bout my life here..i will always need u here..AND a big round of applause to abg2 n kakak2 faci for the brilliant orntation week~en muaz,abg zul,abg faris,abg bob,abg shaputra,abg hairie,kak syira,kak anne,kak ika n all...thanks..thanks..thanks.. n a special thanks to elly n diyana for keeping me insane while i stuggled to go through the most boring weekend of my lyfe filled a a little by calling n smsing..love u both!..n a whole bunch of thanks to stephen mayer for creating 'new moon'..the savior of my desperate life last weekend..i read that book without skipping not even a word i tell u..haha..n of course last but not least to ibu n ayah for not failing to call me 5 times a day for that 10 days..gosh its a number! i do appreciated it n will always remember it..oh yeah~to my hubby love:))fernando torres..thanks for being there with me every single second i'm in the room..although u r just hansomely stand still in the poster..i knew u were there with me(gile!) haha..erm..ok than..thats all i guess..thanks for reading:)

i believe we can fly...

2009-05-13T11:24:00.004+08:00

i want to dedicate this song to all my friends espcially my beloved gladys o4o8...our path maybe different after dis but i'm sure every single of us will become someone in the future..may Allah bless all of us..aminn...

"I Believe I Can Fly"

I used to think that I could not go on

That life was nothing but an awful song

But now I know the meaning of true love

By leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it

Than I can do it

If I just believe it

There's nothing to it

I believe I can fly

I belive I can touch the sky

I think about it every night and day

Spread my wings and fly away

I believe I can soar

I see me runnin' through that open door

I believe I can fly [3x]

Ohh yeah

See I was on the verge of breaking down

Sometimes the silence can seem so loud

There are miracles in life I must achieve

But first it's got to start inside of me ohh

If I can see it

Than I can do it

If I just believe it

There's nothing to it

I believe I can fly

I belive I can touch the sky

I think about it every night and day

Spread my wings and fly away

I believe I can soarI see me runnin' through that open door

I believe I can fly [3x]

Cause I believe in me yeah oh

If I can see it

Than I can do it

If I just believe it

There's nothing to it yeaa

I believe I can fly (I believe I can fly)

I believe I can touch the sky (touch the sky)

I think about it every night and day(Spread my wings)

Spread my wings and fly away

I believe that I can soar(I see me runnin')

I see me runnin' through that open door(through, through)

I believe i can fly yeah

I believe I can fly (I can fly)

God said I can do it (I can fly)

If I just spread my wings (I can fly)

Spread my wings

And I can fly Ohh fly

I can fly (I can fly)

dear future destiny~~

2009-04-17T13:36:00.004+08:00

Dear future destiny, I hope you are kind to me..i hope you dont destroy my feelings and that you consider looking at things from every angle and every perspective,just as i would do to you..please notice that i'm not only make mistakes,but i also learn from them and create wonderful things called lessons of life.i know i'm not doing my best yesterday..but i promise to strive harder tomorrow..remember that i'm in your hands and if you drop me i will break cos you know i'm very fragile..if i'm ever not myself..please remind me..bcos you are the future..please..when will you come my way? sometimes i feel hopeless but thanx to all people that care n love me..i know that future is yet to come..i dont know when that 'someday' will soon become 'today' but please make it faster..bcos like my other frenz i also want to be successful person n make my family proud of me~ sincerely, -ainur-

el nino mi amor~

2009-04-10T09:07:00.004+08:00

my sifu~

2009-04-09T13:42:00.004+08:00

i understand ur feelings dear~eventhough i'm new...i can feel it...have faith kay...love you:)

you'll never walk alone...liverpool~torres~

2009-04-08T09:34:00.001+08:00

here are some photos of our el nino~yayy!! (^O^)

LIVERPOOL NEW FAN!!

2009-03-25T11:41:00.001+08:00

thanx to elly~ i'm now liverpool supporter~but i'm still new...there's so much for me to know n find out about dis team..haha..never cross in my mind to like n watch football..i dont hate it,i just dont care to know bout dis sport..for me football is totally not me..but it really quiet interesting if u watch the match..the way the players play..haha..i watched my real 1st match alone last monday..liverpool vs aston villa..it is very aston-ishing..gle ah..x penah2 tgok bola ...tbe2 tgok bola sorg2...tp wktu 2nd half..ttdo...huhu..i miss 2 goals..thnk god dah tgok kat final score after dat..elly cam mrh ah gak tp dye kate xpe2...1st timer..haha...so..she gave me dis brilliant idea..dye kate wktu mle2 dye tgok bola dlu pon sebab dye nak tgok gerrard...so she told me to choose any player yg agak cute...(xcept gerrard..haha) so, i decided to choose fernando torres...walaweyh~bole thn ape comeinye...n dats was the story...the beginning of a new story...''ainur fan of liverpool''

PLEASE LISTEN...

2009-03-04T12:10:00.001+08:00

when i ask u to listen,

and u start giving me advice,

u have not done what i've asked..

When i ask u to listen

n u feel u have to do something to solve my problem,

u have failed me,

strange as that may seem,

When i ask you to listen to me

and u begin to tell me why i shouldn't feel dat way,

u are trampling on my feelings,

LISTEN!!

all i ask is that you listen,

dont talk or do-just hear me,

advice is cheap...

when u do something for me that i can n need to do myself,

u contribute to my fear and inadequacy,

so please listen n just hear me

and if u want to talk,

wait a minute for ur turn

and i will listen to you~

-ainur-

excited!!

2009-03-04T11:25:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum~

hye everybody...ok...so it maybe look n sound pathetic but i'm dying to write more..(teruje)maybe bcos i'm new here..haha..ok newbies,introduce urself:)

ok!here goes~

*i'm ainur mardhiah azrai*18 to be*i love pink!*i love barbie(laugh if u want to..haha)*29th march every year is my bday*i love my fmily*ayah-my true hero.the most sabar man in the whole wide world.n my bank begerak.i love u ayah!,ibu-although sumtymes i feel lyke banging my head to the wall becos of her own anger management problem.she can be so sweet on the other sumtymes.like for e.g shopping.love her so much!:),abg-he always call me debab or si tembam which on the real world is so so so true.maybe back then i can be so mad at him.but now i think it is just some cruel encouragement for me to trim down a bit.love u?haha!,azam-my only adeq laki which is so xtremely braniac.living in his early teenage/grown up year(ckp mcm dah besa sgt..haha).sumtymes he can be quiet annoying,but then bukannye slalu jumpe ko.so i dont really care so much.ily azam.hehe!,alya-my only lil sys.i hv to share my(ok..our..)precious room with her.ohh.she can be such a drama queen.reporting my activities to my mom.but i love her because some of the reports were eventually will make ibu pleased with me*i love my frens-TKC'S GLADIATORS 0408.we make it till the last day kn?standing tough!huhu-THE GEGIRL(aman,juni,zue,nazu,shamim,diyana)eventhough kte ske memekak n buat havoc dmne2 kte berade,kte x pnah buat discipline cases kn?kte bdak baik yg pndai menyanyi dan disukai ramai.even the mkck-pkck dining hall n the wardens pon jd fans kte kn.haha.elly-my heart to heart best buddy,hannan-sobiroh yg sengal tp pndai,hana-beddie yg menimbulkn kontrovesi,bazy-rkn segile n mkn2.tp x gemok!noni-sweet deskie08*i love laughing*of course..love my precious room*i love myself*love romantic guy like the one in video clip 'tanpa'*love my lyfe..kot.hahaha.now maybe i'm still waiting for sum1 to curi n keep my heart fovever without hurting it.hahaha*i think thats it.some info bout the little miss naughty-ainur*wink*(^o^)

sory if it looks a bit mess...x pndai lg:)...i'll improve kayh;)

the beginning~

2009-03-04T11:12:00.001+08:00

hello2~ testing2...:) i'm not good because i'm new.. this is a very good day to start a new sumthing in my lyfe... hope to see improvement n success!! long life everybody~ peace,love n harmony:ainur:)

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."
-Maria Robinson-